Thoughts of a 'Man'

i just woke up awhile ago, 1443.........

it felt as if i have been sleeping thru the past few days....i kinda feel trapped.....i was falling into nothingness while the whole world was passing by before my eyes.......as i try to swim my way up its not like the world has seemed to stop.

i realised my pattern of blasting music on my computer..........its in my instinctive nature to do so wherenever i need to be knocked in the head with a coconut, so i can get up again and be productive..........

just a short diversion, this new song that i've put up....i've been listening to for the past 4 years.....
its just one of the many good songs that this band, Asian Kung-Fu Generation has produced. i think in terms of music, style or whatever, every song of theirs is catchy and a definite hit....something probably most musicians want to do, but put it off using the excuse of playing sad songs.... and i don't even know how big this band is in japan or around the world, i'll never know if they are the biggest band in the world at this moment, simply because there is no statistical way of ever finding out....... anyway, i thought this song was a good slap to my face...cause it has relieved my hangover(metaphorically) nicely to face challenges again tonight.......


well..............i learnt so many things the past few days though, that i could not possibly have wrote it all down here....but it would definitely make good bedtime stories...............i've got to constantly remind myself of them.........

Insecurities and emotion are constantly being communicated through our facial expressions and body language, i've never realise it was so easily read...esp when you see ppl being affected stongly.........i guess i've revealed myself this way countless of times before....our minds are actually so sensitive and socially intelligent towards all this cues.............even silence is communicating so much...





And i was wrestled into submission with this words. "Ha ha ha, Sargent, why are we suddenly talking about this? we were talking about something else, then suddenly came to this. You very random."
i don't know if you got the msg.....but i was trying to dominate the conversation, set a frame,grip their emotions. but maybe i was too obvious, or they too were so aware in detecting this...that they kicked me where i was vulnerable