Thoughts of a 'Man'

One says "don't stress yourself too much....."...take things lightly in life....
Two says "Study hard and prove yourself to everyone"
Three says "No....Don't have to prove yourself just try your best..."

What no. 3 says, is what i've always believe in...but subconciously, i'm always overly doing what no. 2 says....therefore...i don't even acheive what no.1 says....

Its the first time i paid attention to ppls advice..lol...

I always say "A man doesn't speak, doesn't mean his a mute....
even if the man can't see, he still isn't blind..."

but i don't do it this way....i realise i've been trying too hard in many occasions before....sometimes to prove or what....in many aspects....sigh......nuff said....

shall just try my best...from now on...cannot..try again.....don't set an expectation, while most expectations can't be met...and let yourself down.....maybe my expectations are too high?....but all expectations of yourself are high....as in...low expectations don't exist...when someone expects something of you.....they are hoping for a lot....

well, then i can do what no. 1 says...........life only comes to you once...................enjoy it.......


THEN THEN THEN AGAIN.................opportunity comes once too.........take it lightly too and let it go to waste????????????........how to take it lightly and not go to waste?...lol..........i guess.....take opportunities seriously, but don't drown yourself with failure if you don't suceed.....

Mr Khoo swee chiow says..."Failure is another step to sucess".....yes i believe in this too.....

but WTF........................................kkk......just don't stress....

anyway.........if i manage to do all these..........proving to the world would be no biggie.......by doing so...then you would have ALREADY proven yourself to the world and humanity.......if not...you'll still be getting there...

all these sounds similar to my 'give up' theory....lol

Ziqi, you're dumb and stupid. What if life decides to end tmr......................................................................................................................................................................
...............................................................................................damn stupid.....

I have to change myself....i know i have tried or said so to change....but well i haven't...so i'm going to try again....

the events today are just too weird.......i'm happy for my band as 'they' think that they've all learnt something from today's flop.............as for me, i'm shit......i've forgotten my lyrics today....arghh!H...am really guilty, i'm now the one with all the negative vibes....

and i can't sing, i can't play, i'm not calm, i'm not good looking....can't play well.....wonder how ppl view me....of course i'm the invisible wall.......

ah....ziqi, stop feeling like this....there is nothing you can do sulking about it

how should i say this.....i really have lost all hope kinda....even the only thing i have to be happy about, i'm not really sure of..................................since refraction exists.....even if it seems impossible, light can bend away from you...esp bend around you...thus making something invisible...........................................................eat it like a man, and let anyone who wants to laugh, laugh....

just when you think life is moving very fast, it goes into light speed....So many things happening all at the same time, so hard to manage...every single day with different aspect to worry about, not school by itself...yes JC is busy...so have many ppl who have given themselves 'pain' in thinking that you'll in for something to 'gain' in the end...yes, me too.....

hardly have the time to think thru any of my actions, decisions..which i always take oh so long...

can't wait for the surprises that will unfold these few days....exihilirating shit i experience these days.....Have many long term plans, and plans for after the promos, which give me all the more reasons and incentives to study, to enjoy after that.....

i've been very anti social lately(yes, probably always have been)...but to a greater extent these days, being tied up with so many things.....will try my best not be like this anymore, i'm killing myself if i continue...

life is becoming more and more important to me, with so many deals and people to face and not disappoint....i've always acted upon my own accord and selfishness...not that its bad, but now, if you want to change the world, you'll have to move the people around you too...

signing out...have tons to say...but shall stop....have more to do...

just when you think life is moving very fast, it goes into light speed....So many things happening all at the same time, so hard to manage...every single day with different aspect to worry about, not school by itself...yes JC is busy...so have many ppl who have given themselves 'pain' in thinking that you'll in for something to 'gain' in the end...yes, me too.....

hardly have the time to think thru any of my actions, decisions..which i always take oh so long...

can't wait for the surprises that will unfold these few days....exihilirating shit i experience these days.....Have many long term plans, and plans for after the promos, which give me all the more reasons and incentives to study, to enjoy after that.....

i've been very anti social lately(yes, probably always have been)...but to a greater extent these days, being tied up with so many things.....will try my best not be like this anymore, i'm killing myself if i continue...

life is becoming more and more important to me, with so many deals and people to face and not disappoint....i've always acted upon my own accord and selfishness...not that its bad, but now, if you want to change the world, you'll have to move the people around you too...

signing out...have tons to say...but shall stop....have more to do...

whats up.................don't wanna talk about my life, since there is nothing going on....or that its been quite inorganised...one thing just leads to another......creates more mess.

........i'm going to sleep........