Thoughts of a 'Man'

i took awhile to mature(mentally,emotionally), like the snap of a finger......no no no no, i don't have to go on about it....

anyway, life is what you make of it, you are what you STRIVE to be.....(caps on strive, as initially the word was 'want', but we can't just want to be anybody....e.g, being handsome, being Hide...)

life is not a story or movie....i have to disillusion....life is of without purpose, we come out and do what we want...yeah, its not that complicated...its just this simple...

i am still halfway there.....red or blue pill? reality, or CHOOSE to be in virtual?

AIYIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

wah...i've got nothing to write. Everything above are random thoughts.

well jan said something like....packing up your table before the new year, if not the whole of next year will be messy...anyway, i also went to pack my table before new year..lol

anyway, i totally neglected my blog.....its because i'm feeling great, when i do i just don't come here and whine...and thus this results...been busy with orientation the whole week..well shall not say its boring....at most times its fun, only sometimes its boring....on fri, it totally pissed me off....i guess its because of the stupid treasure hunt...lol...its quite stupid running about decoding some easy clue(well some was quite a challenged...but still easy la).....should have done something like amazing race, which the team does a challenge which requires team work...well, more bonding rite? i guess, since we're forced to work together this way, instead of decoding something stupid...and finding minute things which just gets furiating when you can't find it..lol...not that its unfair, but its 'imbalanced' ppl know where is it once a team finds it.......................whatever...so it just managed to worked me up a little....i wonder if its because of other reasons....

anyway, the water thing was fun....well everything else was not bad....if i don't get into the jc of my choice, ac, i probably be staying here....well, now staying here seems the greater possibility..

also, i'm quite concentrated with the band again....been touching the guitar pass two days...more often....shall finally give up computer games totally....and concentrate on school work....i don't know why, but i'm being attracted to start studying already, or revising sec 4 work....well i have to confess that for my o lvls and prelims, its just last min work...well, it hasn't failed me yet....just that, its last min work, it kind of doesn't stay in my head...

well, so packing the table did help...i feel so organised..lol....

so much has happened in so short a time....thought less of thing that used to bother me...probably because of the intense week......

this entry is very unlike me, wonder what i've become...but i'm going to chiong guitar now....

Well, its the 2nd day of the new yr.....to be exact, at this point, its the 3rd day already....will be going to a entirely new school...have always been excited about all the things that i will yet to find out... well, i have an intense feeling on the entrance of the new year...we all know, life is going to change for sure...don't know what i'll be in for...

in this fresh year, there are only 2 things in my head till now....one is the above, the other is probably something i cannot reach, and have been trying to for the past year....don't know if i should let it down, or what....... because everything just seems unsure recently (and i mean really recent), like its happening for the first time...even though it is very old...whatever, having difficulty expressing this with words..lol...me not making any sense...

"i'm worst at what i do best"......