Thoughts of a 'Man'

this will be a short stop......and an urgent milestone event in life...when i've decided to relieve all past experiences and trust in the name of experiment....

this is of no importance, and i expect no outcome....its time to do something which i do not usually do.....

i know of this girl, who eats an entire apple. literally. except the seeds and stem and 'asscrack?' of the apple.....its weird...i know....and the faces of ppl when they hear of it....they raise their eyes brows so high....and their big bright eyes opens so wide, not really to look at anything...but to depiece the piece of information that theyve just heard...

i went for the green apple....green apples,....shiny and they look plastic..i bit thru the crunchy flesh that composites an apple.....holding it between the 2 'asscracks' with my left thumb middle and ring finger....spinning it with my index at every bite....

*snap*, i'm done.......it was less than a min that i begin to react by wanting to put that apple down...sad, but its no longer desirable...a marriage that has failed to work, depleted and worned out......i told myself, i'm gonna eat the entire apple, just like that girl...if i do this, i would have done what 99.9% of the modern world's population has failed to see....life's short, at least i've done it before.....

imagine a fat plump man reduced to bones...that was the state of my apple...and i was not going to leave any of that lying around.....my friends saw what i was doing...."You can't be serious!"....hahahaha....i said.."whats with the big commotion, whats wrong? i'm just tinkering with my surroundings"

NO....i did not sink my teeth into it upon my self pep-talks in my mind.....i merely took mini bits of the remaining core milimeter by milimeter.....theres that boundary within my mind that prevents people from doing STUPID THINGS, and think of something useful instead.....my friends decided to cheer me on.....their movements, that tension and energy building up within them that you could tell from their movements.....they're beggining to realise that they are witnessing a grand event unfolding before their eyes....

immediately, i broke the core into 2 .....and took the entire half into my mouth.........spat the seeds out.....i was holding the other half by the stem....i lifted it up above my nose....the final hurdle before my job is complete....i tilted my neck up and placed it into my mouth like a cherry, tugging at the stem to pull it out.............

well, that wasn't so bad.........that REALLY ISN"T SO BAD!...........

what a great lesson learnt...i've conquered dark alleys like that before just for the adrenaline, just for the human experience.............






well, here, the caveman does, a stone thrown from the clearing outside, into a cave...plunged into darkness....


i'm that stone..