Thoughts of a 'Man'

there are rewards at every corner if you bother to dig deep enough.....

just a quick post..

it graet to see how the forces of attraction work....resulting in the alignments.....and why a women will never do the approach........maybe i'm wrong but.................................

it was quite overwhelming....and i do seem a little needy, lowering myself in the eyes of others....................

good experience good calibration.....didn't start any routines.......i don't know why......with friends you have no self-conciousness at all..with strangers....there is a tiny weeny bit...but when it comes to relatives.....though they mean nothing to your survival and will probably not affect you in anyway, maybe because i was a junior the way i see myself(which got them to see me that way to), i did not take the dive......

not me, my parents rep was at stake.....................

for axing out anxiety and stepping out to interact....i give myself
2 out of 5 stars....deserving a D grade..........

(i should start to grade myself from now on.....now all of a sudden, i'm for the grading system.....)
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i shall do a small description on the bounce...

one of them did a bounce.....well, it wasn't sucessful i guess..............and i saw why.......they wanted to, but they had no reason to.........

lack of rapport=lack of comfort=lack of pD=negative emotional response=decision leading to negative outcome.

i saw it in pixie.....she saw that piece of dried peach, laying on that ground right in front of her...but when she couldn't get it..........that emotional response that was elicited from her...she couldn't help herself...but tremble and shiver for a moment....her concious mind was in a battle against her subconsious...she was saying no to herself, but she was in noway in control of her desire...attraction is not a choice..........she started growling at it................go...i mumbled the words "Get It"....her agony was lifted...........

how i could make her do absolutely anything..............just for that piece of something which she doesn't even need............how that mental manipulation could be use on humans...its dangerous..... though we are logical human beings..........it takes more than courage.....more than anything to walk away from what you're attracted to............

stories of how girls are able make guys do absolutely anything simply by teasing them with sex.........movies of espionage.....james bond....wow..

anyway, the reason why the bounce failed though i didn't initiate it....was that....there wasn't even any comfort built......the reason they were hesitant was because of attraction....but they couldn't say yes to such a proposition.........cos they had no reason to....not like they felt that they had no reason to....just that the mind, subconsciously had not ticked that point off the checklist yet.........if they agreed...they would have been responsible for their actions, which ppl are naturally inclined to do....

they couldn't help with flash and prox, and i couldn't help it with my inate sense that they're into me......................wtf rite.........primed by years of fascinating evolutionary psychology........

to be different would be to think out of my circuit.....the willingness to walk away.............communicates the idea that you have something better....that what is currently offered is not even important to you......thanks pixie for showing me this.......for being my stupid lab rat..

i hate to believe this...but it seems things are indeed black and white...........