Thoughts of a 'Man'

A pair of mice fell into a bucket of cream and with nothing to hold onto, they struggled but could not get out. The first of the mice soon gave up and drowned. The second mouse kept struggling, churned the cream into butter and crawled its way out.

I am that second mouse!

something i rmbered from the movie.....must have been at least a year since i last saw it...but that story made so much sense...........

today was one of the rarer moments that i've actually given up....well, i guess i'm going to make use of what little i have to some use.............

always i would pull myself out of bed....albeit reluctantly, i would take sometime for myself to warm up then open that door, step out of the house and start something new...........................each and every single day.........despite our minds nature to deceive us, making us feel as if that each and every day of our lives feels the same, that tomorrow would be no different from two days before the day after tomorrow, that its merely a blind routine.............it isn't..............

we must constantly use our two hands to shape the events of the present.....if it feels the same as any other day, its because we are allowing it to happen..................................

i don't wanna go into all these mind baffling bullshit....i constantly tell myself that these ideas in my head are my minds defensive mechanisms to enrich, interest, simulate itself when i'm not allowing the environments, surroundings and everything beyond my control to simulate it instead.......



BLOGGING IS MENTAL MASTURBATION...........NOW GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time for some real intercourse..........i'm getting out of the house..............trim my hair, take a stroll, chat up some strangers, get a coffee, come back...............watch some videos, get ready for tmr instead(today is down the drain)....and sleep early tonight..................its back to work tmr!(how pathetic and hard i'm trying to hype myself up)