Thoughts of a 'Man'

"Singapore is a little piece of heaven on earth." We all soooooo like to think........

hardly a microcosmic microcosm i say..................

On the night of the flight, all i thought to myself was....."finally being unleashed to the ocean after years of being in a fish bowl."

i was excited, finally a trip alone, away from "loved ones close ones"(which i'm more than familiar with, part of my contempt with life).............. i didn't WANT anybody to send me off at the airport...maybe i hated the formalities...but really, i knew this is it, gotta get use to this. its the first step, how i want my life to be......maybe its VBS, maybe it was that encounter on the MRT with that angmoh, simmered in after watching the beach and a french film called C.R.A.Z.Y or maybe it was there all along....its not that i can't stand it here.......it just isn't enough....

Life is too simple here, there is nothing to expect, no choices to make, nothing look for, nothing to hope for, nothing to disappoint....................

That night, i thought i would be slaughtered by great white sharks.......





Well, the truth is, it isnt as bad as it is, how the media puts it.......in fact, i was met with

Friendly Dolphins and Super Whales




A bottle of mineral water costs(converted to SGD) $0.90, coca cola $0.80, and smirnoff vodka of the same quantity $1.10

Cigarettes in boxes with ugly disgusting images costs >$10.70 . Cigarettes in boxes that says "Smoking Kills" or nothing at all costs $1.70(boxes of ten $17).................now we know how much it costs to hunt down those specimens of festering lungs with adobe photoshop...

its not about the....unhealthy indulgence(choice of bad words)......its about choosing for ourselves....liberty and freedom...............

Out of 10 girls, 1 is ugly...........well, you rarely chance upon one..........down here, ppl have the same expensive prom hair all year round...various styles and stereotypes there are appreciated not murdered............................everyones happy friendly and beautiful...not narcisstic like singaporeans that strut around pouting their lips.........

its very clean there, though there are no dustbins....one will grow to love the big messy bustling streets..............peace seeks you in the weirdest of places..........ppl cover their mouths with masks if they're ill...and they all keep to the right on escalators in one long extended line.........something krist noveselic would be proud of....................................both new and old are embraced.................................

its getting nowhere..............i'm just depressed that i'm back...........................

let the song show you just how i've felt for the past weeks........

opened up my eyes...found myself something to do..found a dream worth fighting for....something to fill the hole

away from sad old repressed singapore....heaven, safe and comfortable.............hell truly turns me on................