Thoughts of a 'Man'

before i go on about today's garbage that nobody reads..........a list of random thoughts that grew tired of explaining

*i need to get dump at the toilet first* *break*

why did God give me legs if i was not to use it to run?

God gave me a mind not to hold me back........................

we run on a set of human instincts...............survival instincts..........

on the way back home late at night just now, this guy was holding on to his girl's hand, both of them with motorcycle helmets in their hands...........i passed them, walking in front them for at least 15 seconds.....i heard the man snicker...he mumbled to his girl, "zao can"(breakfast in mandarin)....he was referring to the coffee i just bought from coffee bean........(drinking that late at night)...fine..i thought they just found it funny.........seconds later...he shouted "zao can" again, in what was my interpretation as a desperate attempt to taunt me....i took a long stare back at them...

i don't really wanna break it down but i'll take the hassle to do so...........he saw me as a threat, and seeked to put me down mentally...........since he was with his girl, he was seeking validation from her, by framing himself as above other guys, like me..........oh well, you gotta give it to him for trying that hard..(hope thats what that girl would think)...........nevermind....

God made me a Man, so i would not become a pussy...........

Fearless....i need to stop being myself........start loving myself more, by hating myself more....if you do what you always do, you'll get what you'll always get...the enemy of the best is the good.....throw all that insecurities out the window.................

thats all for today...its all the time i can give...........and i haven't even went into "social alignments".....

in summary....really, we are just seeking value, not friendships........

guys..take the time to hate me...then you'll really know the person that i am........just like coffee, tea, alcohol, and cigarettes..........ppl enjoy all things bitter.....they know that by calibrating to this bitterness, they have a whole lot of pleasure waiting for them........................................