Thoughts of a 'Man'

theres still time...but until now, disappointment engulfs me.................

i see all the things that i fall short....and in this process of redefinition...its really really hard.....its unimaginable the possibility of overcoming this fear......i know what to do, what it takes.......

its more than that first step really........................i took it....it has changed my entire perspective....to be exact.............IT HAS CHANGED MY EXISTENCE

but not enough courgae and determination to take it......................

this is not about love, girls, relationships, emotions..........integral yet small part of the equation....its not what i'm after in the end.................nothing can fill that empty hole that both God and Man have created and widened.............

finally, the ability to understand ppl better than they themselves do, and society as a result.............

i hope this blog tracks the performance, the process, the obstacles, anxiety and fear.........

noone reads these things and understands them.......................