Thoughts of a 'Man'

wondered if i should write something today.............had a good week this week...both in camp and out of camp.............

life is what you decide to frame it up in...........

sometimes i wish i could go express this experience to everyone...tell everyone just how i'm feeling right now...this phase that i'm going through in life.....i'm constantly smiling to myself...but just can't tell anyone about it.....no everyone around me just won't understand....they'll fail to see that life can be fun...everyone is living their secluded lives...i'm just over the top of my head................

i constantly make contrasts these days between myself and the lives of others.....it seems that ppl cannot get out of the FISH TANKS that a million years of evolution has placed us in.........we cross the paths of the same old ppl surrounding our lives all the time....even when we try to spend some alone time, its the same old ppl that we keep getting ourselves caught into....like the same old goldfishes that we spend every single day and second with.........

why constantly baffle ourselves the neverending complicating lists of problems by the same few ppl..... to me, life should be, and is heading that way right now, an OCEAN....every stranger that crosses my path that day is a friend or yet to be, every freaking one of them....it goes something like, strangers are just friends that are yet be discovered.......we don't live in tribes anymore....where there is no known word such as 'stranger'..we don't live with the same ppl everyday of our lives till death.......transport, communication and the population boom has forced upon us to coexist with ppl we only begin to meet the very next second, to explore humanity....................................................................................................................................i hate to go on....ask me about it if you want

i won't say that i'm absolutely happy and contended.........

its just that...life doesn't seem that cloudy anymore....its clear..and the sun's rays only serve to charge me up.......my goals in life are simple.......health, career, relationship..........without one, and humans seep into depression.................

in case i've never really mention to anybody why...heres why this is such a good week........

before this, ive been gearing up towards this week...and this week, things start to fall into place....

got gold (*) for my ippt......cleared my soc; the standard obstacle course.........no ones talked about it a lot, because everyone is ashamed of it....the amount of fear that surmounts when clearing it...........for 3 weeks, i stared at fear in the eye...so much so i understood it...everyone who does soc fears it..........the ppl who excel are the ones that challenge it..........its like jumping out of the plane really.....50 times into it...and you will still feel the andrenaline.............i approach ppl which is hard....talk to ppl who hate me..............and who i hate........

simply put, i'm placing myself in all the uncomfortable positions that i can ever imagine, or which is brought up at that moment........why?.....to get use to discomfort...........

is there a point in it?...my point is, if a person throws a set of keys at your face, and you have not mastered a way to catch it, its gonna hit your face and you're going to whine in pain.........allow that person to keep doing that...............keep getting your face smashed up, mashed up whatever......soon you'll learn to catch it........................and soon after that.............when something flies towards you...........your hand moves to grab it without your own notice................i'm finding ways to solve the everyday problems that we seek to avoid.......like newton and einstein questioning the 'nature' which ppl seem only to care less about..................soon, i can just deal with everything that life THROWS at me.................without a single sleepless night, without a flinch....get a million heartbreaks, so your mind doesn't screw with you when the next one comes along.......

shiping asked me if girls dislike guys who use vulgarities.......i propose let there be vulgarities.........its ok to have hate in the air.........fuck this, fuck that, fuck him, fuck her.........it shows the world and GOD how unpure, or really pure we are....that we aren't hypocrites...we can't get rid of it...our parents come in and nag at us, or disagrees with something, in our minds we curse the hell out of them........we don't just smile at our enemies...it takes more courage to stand up and say fuck you to the person you hate then to be nice to him/her.......

thats all i'm going into this week.............suddenly, sleep seems so precious, when you've got something to accomplish tommrrow.........

i part you with this wise words guys, so you may live the next 28,251 days minus the no. of days you've lived to the MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx..............

"There is a saying. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why we call it the present." - Master Wu Gui (haha...rmb kung fu panda...)