Thoughts of a 'Man'

I AM THE LAW.........

freaking hell....just looking thru at ppl on friendster.......i believe friendster provides a good representation of a person's personality(shit personalities esp...).....depending of whatever they put up on their profiles, the photos they post........

for me, i try to do whatever is interesting....whatever is to my liking, and not bother about whether its what ppl judge me upon......my blog?......i guess i like its ambiguity, and plain outlook....nothing fancy to divert ppl's attention from this die-hard compulsion to release my (esp)frustration of this stinking world......what motivates me to be who i am is the hatred and love i have for life and this world, devoid of any particular culture or belonging, unlike most, whether its seeking acceptance, competition..........some ppl just try to hard......

being in NS for a wee-bit greater than 3 weeks, i have not had much contact with the outside world......i don't know how social life is like in the 'real world'.....how stupider it is becoming and which ppl are soughting to become.... friendster is a great place to read, if not entirely, into the minds of ppl.....

its not that hypocrisy is bad....its not that we should feel the need to be who we are or 'just be natural'.............be cheena and beng whatever, just don't be irritating.......

(i wish i was a painter/artist, so i don't have to whine so much in words...when a picture speaks a thousand words.)

even in NS, where there is no point for it existence, it exist.......where the actions of some speaks so deafeningly loud, "Look at me, I'm Impressive!".........

in case, you still don't get what i'm whining about.........partly, its being fueled by the wrong reasons such as trying to impress instead of the 'fire that is burning inside'(corny, i know...i meant passion)......partly its innate, where its happens because they do not recieve enough respect from ppl, resulting in low esteem, which tingles this natural instinct....just like being thirsty, your body feels uncomfortable, and you seek water....since humans are not animals, and instincts are not what controls our actions ultimately...CANNOT BE FORGIVEN.

in case you're wondering, trying to use strong words, unconciously trying to impress readers(if any)......no i'm not....not trying to be bombastic....pompous maybe.....i just want to improve my language....the same reason i go jogging....same reason for being so masochistic as to enjoy all the runs in NS......

ahhhhhhhhh....enough for today....got so much i have left to say, so much i've forgotten about, so much i've left out.....but thoughts continue evolving every second....like clouds.....i wonder how einstein can explain that with space-time....how he settled on an exact theory when his thoughts are no longer the same as it was a sec ago, since it continues to be distorted by time?.....i'm just mumbling crap...don't have any knowledge on this....relativity relative before relative now relative on its own....huh?

also feel like i'm losing the knowledge that i've spent whatever little time i took to memorise it in jc.....read read read.....i get a high, curiousity of a child, if you haven't noticed, with everything i do.......and i know it does irritate ppl...