Thoughts of a 'Man'

"when mathematics fails."

was at esplanade last night.....me and chung as always, decided to head to the free gigs available during the weekends there.......its been a long time since we've been there.....during the few times that we headed there, it was always some ska bands, not that they were bad...but the crowd were a turn off.....

and finally......reading the friday Life! newspaper, they showcased some upcoming local bands, dualtone and b-quartet.....and ever since i heard this local band, Camra, play....i was surprised that the alternative genre was so alive....even radiohead would be proud.....

b-quartet was really really good......one of the best local music i;ve heard yet.....electrico can forget it.....unless you're going mainstream....ships was saying how the vocalist was high and behaved like bind melon's shannon hoon...lol... i was expecting him to start making fun of ppl already by then......lol

all my favourite elements of music in one band.....heavy drumming, dreamy singing, non-midi non-synth sounding electronic sounds..........

so i bought the album, the poem on it inspired this post................

"you do not have an imaginary friend.
i am not your imaginary friend.
i believe we have come to a point,
somewhere halfway through our lives,
where we could be living in a cardboard
box and not be too bothered by it the
very next morning. i woke up yesterday
with a very bad headace. you had no idea
that we were stranded in the middle of the road.

i blame the bloody autopilot button.

go to sleep. do not wake up until i do."

non-conformist sounding...emo...and against everything that currently exist..


so begins this episode of self-reflection........

i remembered when i was younger.........much younger......all the times when i was young that i could remember.....push the corn up the holes of a lotus root, when your mum brews soups like these...

i was a rebel in preschool.......i was the only rebel in preschool......i don't know what was right or wrong..just did what i want, not what i was told.....i guess i was being caned too much when i was young...my parents told me i was given the most as well as given the cane the most.....didn't give a shit about the teachers, was punished all time.....remembered all the crimes i committed, but never the punishments or repercussions...

wasn't anti social or what......every morning i would enter the nursery all cheery, but i will always seclude myself..............its not that i will not mix around with others or was shy.........but the first 1 hour in the morning while we wait for all the children to be delivered, we will get to play with toys and all...........i never learnt to play with other children.....i only knew how to play with myself...everyone else will be talking and making noise with one another....but i will be alone, gathering the big pieces of lego,duplo(i think), for my 'project' every morning.....during this period, i will not mingle with anyone but kept to myself....obsessed in building elaborate spaceships, always wanted to be an astronaut after watching lots of starwars and startrek....or i will be building my bungalows with back and front yards....... there was this once, when i was only over 2, this 6 yr old fat indian kid came to disturb me while i was busy with my engineering pursuits......i don't think i was pissed off....but you know how children are.....watch supernanny, and that was how irritating i was....a push here and there and a fight ensues......i was being slammed into the book shelves.....and i broke something which my parents had to pay..........

i'm bored now...don't wanna blog time away...........i guess i'll head down to jp to shop and stroll around.....some eye candy and some sweet gifts for my taste buds will do me good.............but not before some exercise.......