Thoughts of a 'Man'

nothing much is going on...

feeling so helpless right now....my modem has failed on me.....was going to play games with friends....but.., the modem spoilt.....still haven't bought my ns stuff...and things like spectacles which takes a few days....i may not have time to collect..since i'm entering this thursday.
finally it has boiled down to this....nothing really matters.........but these emotions which are just so hard to get rid off...i've got nothing interesting to say these days either....past few posts have been pure crap..

arghhhhhhh.........no matter how much you try to pretend....we are all lonely ppl...slaves to all the ppl around us....social ecology?....dependent on them to feel alive......doesn't matter if we're the characters in 'I am Legend' or 'Castaway'......i may be meeting friends every single day for the past month(...literally.....)......but lonliness is still your best friend.....finding a girlfriend will not change things either.....the 'chase', 'sparks', 'passion'....even if you knew how to make it last, will not last.......soon it gets too old, and will be swayed to find the next 'ideal'.......

it is definitely easy to fall in love, it is our biggest weakness...why?...because lonliness is our bestfriend...well, more like the person you hate so much but sticks to you like glue.....to escape lonliness momentarily, fall in love....but still you can't escape glue la..........if everyone constantly reciprocates our love, and pay more attention to others than to oneself..........will we defeat it?.....maybe we'll just want even more...and as stated above, more and more, till the person has nothing else to offer and they break up........


i wish i had the answers to everything........(maybe this is just an emotional response)....

why don't i just get her when i seem to know the answer why?.....

arghhhhh....we are all entangled, yet seperate.....exist in one world, yet it feels plenty more.....

Just as i finally surrendered and decided to go to sleep, tried turning on my modem and it starts working.............

Throw a rock at a pole and you will miss, throw a rock away from the pole and it hits.....(by rock lee)