Thoughts of a 'Man'

Here i am again.....i'm sick of blogging, but i still do it..haha...was reading thru some of my posts, a friend or two keep saying that my blog is damn emo...i don't get it.....its not that emo at all...blogging has becomed a habit for me already, when i read thru my entries...i thought they were worthless..... random words from someone who just has to pour out everything from his mind or it will just build up and stress me up inside...theres this urge constantly to write, type........i've watched on nat geo that mentally ill patients also have these symptoms....their head is filled with too much crap, that they can't sleep and just have let it all out....but i don't think i'm to that extent...so much so, that i wasn't going to type anything today...but still i have nothing to do.....hopefully i get to play a game of dota later on...

why do ppl say this stupid blog is emo, when its not that emo.....maybe they see it as an desperate attempt from an emo to not be emo and be happy...these only makes it more emo......well, ever since the first entry, foundations of this blog is built with emo...so emo, i'm ashamed.....

theres just nothing in this world to be happy about is there?......maybe as children........we can amuse ourselves with toys.......that feeling of novelty exist with everything you do.....but once you become an adult, unfortunately.......we are waiting for pleasure.... we cannot obtain it by ourselves.....