Thoughts of a 'Man'

just when you think something is meaningful, the next second that same thing feels meaningless....felt like this when i was on the bus home, recalling the events that happened today...i felt contended, that it was all so interesting, the deluge of ideas that came pouring out.....but a split second later, i felt all these thoughts makes no significance.....can't really define why, i just felt that way.............

its like finally realising something, enlightenment........coming to one's senses, being disillusioned....but really, when disillusioned, you're just falling into another illusion.

ah....these doubts......i imagine the conflicts that the guy, who later attained nirvana to become buddha, had when he sat under the bodhi tree to ponder on the truth.....but how did he came to accept that the 'truth' was truth, that it was absolute? and the 'truth' was, that the meaning to life is that its meaningless.....its merely a passing....and everyone ends up dead...

junhui, i have a gift for you.....

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the punks who thought of the punk fashion.....was disillusioned with the social structure..too much conformity restricted freedom, liberty....but by trying to deprive himself of it, he restricted himself the chance to conform...not only that, he went against what he stood for...to be non-conformist is simply to conform to non-conformity......like andrew mentioned.....to not believe in God, is a religion on its own.....as it is a belief that God or gods, semi gods, demi gods, omni gods do not exist......

PARADOX

ok........above are just mindless ramblings.....paradoxes happen EVERYTIME.....so it does not take one to spot it...........i think i've mention it again and again.....so i will not do it this time... with ppl, they appear strong in areas that they are most weak.... to cover these weaknesses........when you see someone trying so hard to be happy, it only makes the whole scenario look worst to the thirdparty, because it seems so sad..........

ah............thats it........its meaningless...i give up....out of the blue, i just feel too lazy to type anything......i'll stop here....bet that happens everytime too...