Thoughts of a 'Man'

Can't stand my parents again................i've probably posted once or twice on arguments on how i've disagreed with my parents views....today once again....i'll never know, whos the one thats naive.........argh......got into this heated argument about conformity with both my parents and my grandmother.....it irritates me......my siblings which are very much older than me, my sis and to a lesser extent my bro, have influenced, imparted, nurtured ideals of non-conformity from a very young age.....that i oppose pop and mainstream since preschool......

but my parents.....even much much older.....and a grandmother whos older than most grandparents of ppl my age......just keep preaching about how we should be like everybody else, and not try to be different...there is nothing from my parents that i have learnt, because of them i love nothing in this world, and learn to hate everything......

...my mum was like saying really loudly 'ru guo niu shi ba sian de ren shi zhe yang de, ni wei she me yao bu tong ge ren jia jue de ni qi guai...' (if 90% of ppl are like that, why do you want to look different and be thought of as a weird.....)...."kan ni jie jie jiu hao.....da de tou fa 'highlight' ye bu hui 'highlight'.....ying gai highlight yi liang tiao jiu gou le......ren jia bu jue de ta cool ah....jue de da xiang yao guai"........(look at your sis, don't know how to highlight hair, highlight so much, should just highlight one or 2 streaks.........ppl don't htink she's cool, shes a freak.).................i was cursing my mum inside siah.....i told her what she watches on television are mando pop from taiwan and hongkong, only ah lians highlight one or 2 streaks.....in america and uk.......its not that lian....."ni you bu shi ang moh"........(you are not ang moh).......i interrupted her halfway...and preached to her about what our ministers say, or even what the greeks have mention that democracy assumes ppl to know whats best for them.....if not it crumbles........the ministers in singapore have quoted this and say that in singapore ppl do not know whats best and that we need a one party goverment, leaders to guide the flock of brainless sheep.....

then my grandmother "ni kan (my uncle)...da yi qian bi ye dian li de shi hou, chuan xi zhuang, ma you chuan pi xue, chuan po po lan lan de xue, ge (his father) ma..." my uncle who probably graduated around the 70s, wore some sneakers(should be converse or nike or something)....while wearing the 'university scholar' dress (the blue out fit, with the square hat..)............heard this story a few times.....and been recently brought up also because he just passed away......really young.....i was thinking to myself, either on purpose or not.....its really cool, and its replicated in movies all the time.....

my parents was like whining about their years of experience again..that 60 years they've seen this and that....i told them the fact that they've been around for over 60 years meant that 10 years would have not have mattered and would have seemed like a wisp of smoke.....while i've been around for 18 years, and 10 years to me is almost my entire life if you disregard childhood, which more or less is spent bumping around like being on estasy.................10 years of my life, is a big portion of my existence......i told them that i would be more aware and noticed the changes so much more than they would.....10 years ago..........9 out of 10 ppl spotted centre partings........bengs look like bengs................when a friend of my sis, had long spikes of hair, inspired by the liberty spikes doo of sid vicious and he inspired by the statue of liberty, my mum was like teasing and teasing about it........saying that its durian head and all......NOW.....9 out of 10 have spiky hair......and the ah bengs and mats dress as if singapore was london in the late 70s.....also.....the gothic style that my sis had 10 years ago.....she was artistic and drew only vampires elves, anything fantasy..........and my mum was telling me that its not that she wants to be different.....she is hallucinating, imagine being a monster...........NOW........though that style is still rare, and that its been polluted by japanese culture into lolita fetishes.........emo, a sub-genre of goth rock is on the rise................black nail polish, eye liner, and that long fringe is merely derivative of goth........ultra emo ppl cut themselves and write emo poems.........goths are the extreme, who organise ritual suicides in groups, chanting poems in graveyards.......

everything my mum condemned,condemns, and will condemn in future, ended up in mainstream culture, glamourised and commercialise for profiteering.........if the 90% of the ppl had the foresight of that 10% of ppl.......and realise from the start its non-conformity not conformity and the need to fit in(that ppl still don't realise now)...........the world will be filled with more colours............

it kind of started with the clothes that i bought, then she wa telling me how i should wear them...and i was telling her....no......

and no, i won't look out of the ordinary for prom............