Thoughts of a 'Man'

was a little pissed off today....but guess its ok now.....its just too trivial.....anyway, it just led into another episode of soul searching, which i won't talk about now..........cos i won't have the time..

i read an article about the youths in china.....despite the aging population around the world, china has one of the youngest population....despite being a communist country, collectivisation and communes which is what it should be.....the youths are displaying this self-centered attitude....it was a TIME magazine article a few months ago........but similarly it was about this consumerism, materialism, globalisation, the hedonistic treadmill that we've been reading about in the comprehension passages...its affecting even china.......where still a large population lives in poverty......... more about it another time...maybe tmr.......

also was going to read about Mother Theresa's recently unveiled lack of faith in both God and herself while she was constantly wearing a mask to hide her insecurities....even Mother Theresa, had insecurities, how am i ever going to destroy them......i wonder what insecurities Gandhi had.....and all the 'brave', 'courageous' ppl that have walked the planet...do they all have conflicts with their own inner demons?.....................

a reader wrote to newsweek,(apparently this is large news that is covered in probably all magazines and over the internet).......
'Great Saints have had grave crises of faith: the greater the saint, the graver the "dark night of the soul."'....
well, there were many ppl rushing to defend her.....but one thing's for sure....if you can't fight these demons, hide it........don't allow them to cause you to neglect all thats around you, and all thats important.........

well, i've not changed, but i will...................what a grave mistake i've made all this while...