Thoughts of a 'Man'

arghhhh1!!...... can't stand it anymore... my eys are red and sore again... it was sore on tures day and wed, which kind of limited the of study i could do, as i try to rest my eyes more....then the last two days were ok...but i think it was partially there...now its back again....fucked up !......i'm to delve into self-pity in this very very crucial moment...haha one more week, and i have so much to cover, and i wonder if god is trying to help me or not......maybe he is giving me sore eyes, so that i'll have less time to study, and that i'll feel a greater urgency....paired with a pulled muscle or ligament or something near my left ankle so i can't walk or go anywhere but stuck at home to study.......

haha guess what....i'm actually typing with the monitor closed....to pspare my eyes from the pain of staring at the monitor...so neither will i turn on the screen later to check the speeling errors ... 1 more week and i'm supoosed to die a sitting duck...nvm i think i'll at least cover some dynamics and electricity...and hope fully finish the whole of physics by tmr....

it was so weird, i went with my grandmother to the supoer market just now...wow....... in there, its like the guys are being outnumbered by at least 10 to 1....seriously......and there is really great comfort in knowing that, it not just a place full of lao auntie.....but there are many young ppl as well.....i actually do go to the supermarket quite alot, most of the tiems in the evening.(not because i'm a responsible reliable child that my parents depend on...i'm not that filial or neither do i spare a thought for them.......its because i have to grab something to eat with 10$ when my parents are out and have not cooked, and i want to save as much money as possible by not eating in food courts or whatever...its like shopping malls serve the same old food fare in terms of foodcourt and fastfood...not like i want to eat the same old stuff everyweekend when my parents go club in some 'NEW GEN club' for the retired...i always get sausages or some meat or some cheese eggs and sauses to cook....this walking into supermarket, and buying stuff to cook actually gives me that sense of superiority, DIY, how the punks like to put it....cook yourself, its PUNKROCK!).....

i think its the first time out of 5 years? i went like at noon where there are hordes of ppl........ok let me report on my findings..lol...there was this demure librarian looking china girl......then there was this post-bohemian sort of look girl.really pretty...with her friend.......and then there was this chick wearing some ultra mini hotpants......mmmmmm.....hot.. saying something like "i was thinking spinach.."...lol........better thing is....they don't visit supermarkets with their boyfriends......of course there were tons of ah lians too.....and i don't know whats wrong with some ah lians nowadays....they like wearing extreamly big words and phrases on their tops....i think they're reallyjust trying to the tell the world that they are more than just plain 'bimbotic' lians...that they do have some brains up there, that they do have their strong opinions, that they do have worldy views....i wonder ......are they itelluectuals? i'm not saying that they're not, i'm not looking down on them...but if they're wearing something like, iPAP ROCKS...maybe i'll really think ...or STOP GLOBAL WARMING...OR or REUSE REDUCE RECYCLE....haha....maybe i would really be led to believe they are ppl with great big revolutionary ideas....but nope......like goth chicks...its..i probably its just the image thing.....they are wearing words like... I KNOW I"M HOT...or I (HEART) NY....(you love new york for what?.)......yeah i saw this lian in the super market wearing I(heart) NY......oh well....PARADOX........

i 'turn back on my monitor'.....

ah okay....my grandmother was going berserk in the supermarket....from the start, i asked..."xu bu xu yao na na ge che? wo na na ge lan zi ah?"....(translation: do i need don't need get that car? i take that basket ah?")......she say "mai yi dian dian er yi"(buy a bit)...........then we went around buying chicken, soy sause...blah blah.....imagine going shopping with a girl.....they want to grab everything....she said "jin wan yao zhu se me?"(tonight want cook what?)...then she bought lots of spinach.......some pears....my basket was filled to the brim already....i said "jin wan zi you san ge ren chi"(tonight only 3 ppl eating)....then she went to the fruit juice section.....then she chose the marigold mixed fruit yoghurt drink.....she said "ni zi ji ye mai ge guo zi lai he"(go buy some juice)...i thought she wanted to drink more...so i chose something for her... she said"ni xi huan mang guo zi ah" (you like mango juice?)........"wo sui bian, ni yao ma........wo bu yao he de" (anything, you wanted, i don't want any)....she said "ni xuan ni yao de..."(you choose what you want)...i say "ah...wo bu yao bu yao...bu xiang he...."(i don't want. don't feel like..) so i put it back...but then she kept forcing me to get one...ah...so i just bought mango juice, not that i have any favourites, its a sweet tropical fruit i guess..

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