Thoughts of a 'Man'

i guess i'm not going to write about the same things over and over again, cause its one big confused pile of uncertain i-don't-know-what.... my mind is simple......ahhh...i really don't know whats going on.......and i'm afraid of the truth at the same time.....lol..........

so let me just kick it away.... *zham!* ....



The world of anti heroes.....

i wanted to go into this, but i'll write a very long essay about it...that would really piss everyone off...........i wanted to, but i guess no one would be interested in my fantasies anyway...but its something so obvious that i'm sure everyone would have noticed anyway........so i 'll just make it real short...

Just wondering why Anti-social behavior is so celebrated in our world......I guess it really is the epitome of non-conformity.......why are rock stars so stuck up, but everyone worships them.....an the never-fail sympathy or admiration for anti-heroes in movies....You can dress like a punk, like slim shady........but then you'll just be a poser, like everyone else.....oh yes its the attitude, and its something you can't fake, have to be genuine about it............and its no wonder i identify some of these traits in me, because i'm overwhelmed by all the influence these ppl have on me...

i've heard from some adults that in this world, you have to be arrogant for people to treat you seriously....sincerely congrats to those who made it.....i just can't be arrogant to save my life......well, maybe in some aspects i am, but just couldn't see it.....

was in my room, and , heard a phrase that was being spoken on a chinese drama that my mom was watching......the phrase was "Nan Ren Bu Huai, Nu Ren Bu Ai"..turns out daniel was wrong after all....he says only girls in america, in western societies are attracted to bad guys, bikers and such.....

now, see the benefits?

Go on, go find a full-length mirror, when alone, point the middle finger and pose.....try to appear real badass......it will make you feel damn cool, serious......as well as look into your soul, through your windows, i mean eyes. Search real hard for the devil that lies inside you.......

Start using the F word if you wanna appeal to all the english-speaking-perfect-american-accent-never-been-to-america girls(wah, my engrish kannot make it la......so many hypens to describe something)......or Use your hokkien vulgarities with ah beng flair to turn the ah lians on.....WOOHOooo......

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wah i just couldn't resist it...i couldn't wait till some other time to fix it.....i bought myself some lego to play with when i passed by 'Brick World' today at plaza sing.....hahaha....i think when i start working or have some money to blow away....i'll go buy a big lego structure to play with...... when i was younger, i always dreamt about owning this fisher-price pirate ship.......but never got to......sigh.......now i'm going to start building a lego utopia.....