Thoughts of a 'Man'

ok.....i should be going to study soon.....was really occupied this weekend...which is a good thing..wasn't spending the whole time studying, but still the time was wasted properly..

sigh...30 days or less to the A lvls......ok i've got so many chapters that are yet untouched, i plan to finish 3 chapters of whatever hopefully 4 chapters in a week......all these gaps here and there, i don't know if i can clear it in time, and still do some practise before entering the examinations....especially economics....not to worry, i know i can do it.....

there is this anticipation in me for the a lvls....its good, it feels just like the excitement of getting to go up to stage and perform....and weeks before the actual performance, the anticipation starts and never ceases..it becomes the centre of all priorities..studying is just like the jamming sessions, which is quite enjoyable really...this belief keeps me going i guess...

i really really really really hope no one will look back and regret this episode in life...the A levels...its like being in one of those life-threatening obstacle courses with big rolling boulders, giant swinging axes, flying darts and spike pits.......we really cannot cannot allow ourselves to be knocked off course.....it doesn't matter if you intend to do well, to give up and do something else after this, or even retain(which i believe that door is already closed).....

we are being rushed to do our A lvls....and for me(and many many many many others) wanted to retain to have more time to acquire it in my own pace, but no......schools now are being ran like factories, with capitalistic principles.....they just want you to churn out top grades......they take in a lot of ppl, they don't give a shit about how well or badly you do....well the teachers do care, but the system itself is cruel, so the teachers themselves can't help you....the school should be burnt...

just don't regret.....Its this stupid education system that our prime minister likes to boast so much about and give such impertinent recognition to.....i agree that if you're in hwachong or raffles or some prestigious school, you are probably being groomed to be sucessful in society in future......but the school i am in right now and my secondary school, is far from that........my secondary school, a neighbourhood school, sucks....they do not develop you in anyway, restricts your ambition, your potential, does not speak or represent education in its purest forms.....in jc, well pjc is much better, but still it lacks a lot...lacks behind in providing opportunities, or in grooming or developing your potential and personality....it sucks....it's so called opportunities are provided to only a small few minority which the school believes is the cream, overseas trips, SDP, or any workshops provided to those they think will benefit from most, and neglecting everyone else.. and that they're being meritocratic about it...but really, like society, their being impassive to those who are really talented, really free......

yet to be expressed, i have a long list of problems that the singapore education system has, i have a long list of solutions for the system. since i have the solutions, i have the right to complain... if i ever told the schools something like this, they will surely blame it on funding..saying that there are not enough funds to support us or develop us....like in hockey cca, they do not have funds to book pitch and shit....funds......please, our goverment is efficient, but not efficient enough... the goverment allocates such a big budget to our educational system...but how much actually reaches us students....how much of it actually is put to good use and develops us, allowing us to provide external benefit to society..how much of this money is translated to quality education....the goverment may be trying its best by pumping in lots of money, but not on the right things.....give teachers a larger salary?!.....does it improve the quality of teachers or quality of teaching?! i don't get it.....it just increases the number of teachers, and then the govt will have to pay even more, but the students don't benefit from getting better teachers...not that the teachers are lousy, but its reality...teachers in turn are being churned out in mass like the 'backyard steel furnaces' in the great leap forward....well, how many principles does a school need?.....we usually have 2, now, almost every school has 3......yes, such promotions and big money in their pockets improves the education system....how many ppl do you need to make a decision....just have a board of directors and advisors and one chairperson......

i'm bitter because i'm one of the many many students who never got to exploit the funds...never got to go to any overseas trips....

recently, govt has been trying to sell our Arts industry.....yes, by pumping lots of money, into the drain.....i got an A for project work, mainly because i kept critisising this in my project, saying the goverment doesn't know what its doing...i'm quite happy that Royston Tan lived up to his name, looks more accomplished now than Jack Neo will ever be...i'm so happy that anybody that witnessed our project realised its potential and said 'yes,they were right'....rmb arts need to be cultivated in ppl's minds first....well then again, the govt could be boasting about our film and arts industry thru the media merely to garner more investments....

wah i talked so much about this govt thing.....i'm wasting my time....i still support the pap though...time to study time to study...

i'm gonna continue my story someday....or maybe never.....