Thoughts of a 'Man'

should have just woke up from the start right? why bother in the first place......sigh....maybe i'll be back into that dreaded state again, i never know......??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
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i need some answers la........cos i don't know whats happening....i think no one wants me to know but i have all this doubts......imagine being blind, deaf...devoid of all senses and stuck in emptiness, like in a coma....like in death............. and i want to get out, for better or for worst...only the answers can get me out. out of feeling this way.....