Thoughts of a 'Man'

i've came to a conclusion, though i don't know if this conclusion will remain for the days after this......but its really just that simple....

the chinese saying goes, "shi ni de jiu shi ni de"....lol...lolololol............this is really corny, and everybody says this to you all the time......but its actually true.....i'm not a cheena guy at all, but i constantly quote chinese ppl simply because their phrases always seem to have drifted from a wise old man's mouth......

if she likes you she likes you........no matter how retarded you look, it wouldn't change a thing.........if she doesn't like you then it wouldn't matter what all the stupid sacrifices that you're willing to make for her.....sacrifices ranging from hunger strikes to not washing your hands after you pee(just exaggerating) wouldn't make her like you even a little more..

i've had my own share of loser experiences......once was simply being rash and stupid....so it really makes it even more difficult to for the girl reject you.....and that wouldn't help...another time,was mildly intersted and did something out of purely to have fun, totally random.....the end result? i was clueless.....nothing changed..... and i didn't really care after that......lol

bake a cake? splash hundreds of dollars to buy a handphone? hello kitty? flowers? steal a gun during night sentry? climb rapunzel's hair? i can give you thousands of gift ideas, love confession ideas...etc.. that all guys would commit but they never work unless there's that fundamental attraction that exists from the start...

everyone in this world, even the most arrogant would be brought down to their knees sooner or later, behave like a fool... unless of course you're qi huat the enlightened........

then of course thats just a theory....unless due to other factors which result in some exceptions...


hmmm...i've never talked about why i liked her, so i'll just record it here so i'll be reminded in future just in case i forget, or get amnesia tmr.......

there are plenty of reasons that make her overwhelming attractive to so many guys.....i always thought she was just trying to be miss popular, she was able to get all the guys to go to her......that was what i thought, simply because the grapes were hung too high...... her being irresistibly cute.....it is the other way around, guys go to her...(without trying?)....she's like nectar to bees, and guys, we're just dogs... i guess i'm a victim now, and i feel just as foolish sometimes, to feel this stupid is really beyond my understanding................

to add to the complication, shes too nice.....

sigh....i really wonder if its 'simulated interactions' for soemtime now..... its like when you !ping a computer, it !pings back......purely because its quite necessary.......someone told me to just get to the point and ask instead......i guess i will once all my priorities are sorted out.........but i think i already know the answer, i'm just holding on to a veil, something that does not exist....

at the end of the day........if nothing happens, all this will fade away in time....i will look back and see nothing.....another foolish endeavour, another trace of memory....it really should not matter....The gods are just making fools of us mortals.........