Thoughts of a 'Man'

hmmm.....i guess all the negativity only brings things to the darker side....there are always chances of rediscovery even when things seem to be stagnent.....so i should always look at the possibilities right?

sometimes its good to have moments of stagnation, just like today.....it is so boring.......i've always despised boredom.....but i guess it was good today......nothing was around to grab my attention.....so my mind just begin to enjoy such understimulation.......such moments are important so that i can always look at my own life from an objective point of view instead of being bent by emotions.......

things begin to look simple...........

ok now i've really got nothing to say........there is really nothing much that needs to be emptied, thus i'm speaking in broken and ineffective sentences....aiyah.......

so this is it.....let everything fall into place.....

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so i'm back, after a some 10 mins or so.....with this sudden burst of emoness coursing through my veins...........oh i just feel that...........ah i don't know what i feel....maybe its just because i'm not getting what i want, thus feeling like an ass.....or maybe its just my face, which turns ppl off........or maybe this is exactly the obstacle i have to overcome....

well.....i'll try to be that less than 0.5% chance of hitting an atom and getting it....even though 95% of it is just empty space.....there must be some innovation required for all this..............

wah...all this is so hard, i'm oblivious to what she thinks..................im just not the alpha male programmed to manoeuver this harsh jungles and swampy forests......i guess it is a survival trait that there are some ppl who are programmed to run away from everything, and be a wimpy loser in order to stay out of the race, to keep one's life, instead of losing in a highly one-sided combat and die.....