Thoughts of a 'Man'

Tough nut to crack..........just when we think that we're larger than life...events will always occur to change that view...not that i frequently feel that way...but it happens once in awhile....i'm brought back to earth to realise that we are only mere mortals..........i only have part of the puzzle........a piece of insignificance which shape my entire existence......................animal planet and discovery channel seem to simplify the lives of mammals on television......as humans, i guess we like to see ourselves as different.......but whether we are, i will never never know.......sigh...

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i wonder if this is a battle i can win......a battle where all the odds are against me........i wonder if i'll choose to enter this battle.....may give up half way........this battle many are fighting, many are losing..........many have given up......some have gotten really really close....they'll probably be closer than i'll ever be in my life, they are probably stronger, wiser.....but they have failed...how could i ever hope to win........what is it do i need to fight this battle? i don't know....there are no books no souls that can be helpful...i really only have a choice to bet on my instinct.....and how about to deal with all the whores.....the foxes in sheep's clothing..................................many unforseen obstacles.....'minefields'

i've just recently manage to grip onto it....(imagine one of the bars on the outside of the train, common in action movie scences)...............not on my own intention, but being swept by it....i never wanted to visit,it just happened and now its inevitable.......from here i have to plan my next move, and i have been thinking constantly about it.....well, i haven't taken a step.....i have to take a step....it'll be bad if i take that wrong turn, or worse if i do not venture.............

"I'm on the high way to hell! And i'm going down.....All The way DOWN......."