Thoughts of a 'Man'

Blame yourself for being such a useles piece of shit...Blame yourself that everybody that you love will hate you.. I am not trying to dramatise my life, but if my inner deamons does not cease to control my life.. i will hate myself forever.. Why am i always running away.. I am the freak.. Oh man.. What will she think of me now.. Everytime i have just about everything to say, but when the time comes to just do it, my nerves get to me... i chicken out.. Chicken out of merely having a concersation. What an idiot......