Thoughts of a 'Man'

The best thing i can do is to return home each day, slam my room door and stick it to the 'man'...the world now has been everything that is going wrong.......its those times, where for a second you feel like your tears would gush out at that moment, when a bit of it does....you calm yourself and stop and think and blame it all on the world...simply a defense mechanism against breaking down.....and its those times, where all these thoughts manifest and i come here to write it down.

besides feeling like the world has passed me by, i feel as if everything that shouldn't happen happens........

maybe its these times where ppl turn to religion seeking assurance......but i think for me, these seems impossible.....its hard to believe in something that my mind just acknowledges non-existent, and harder to believe why God would even bother with our problems...and the only other way to go is to go against everything.......

maybe life is like this...maybe its a sort of simulation or not, where if you start losing your confidence everything in 'your' world goes wrong or seem to go wrong.....until you start to pick yourself up, then everything will just turn out right.........

wah i hope i could distract myself with studies like i did in the o lvls........give up hope on resolutions and just study....


i was watching these episode about dogs on animal planet......

usually its strict documentary style of format....

however episode on dogs was different....it reflects the lives of dogs with that of our own lives and the philosophies of nature by using some science of how dogs live.......

hunters, retrievers, herders, sleigh dogs, guard dogs were all bred by humans and because of our purpose for them, they evolve very quickly over a few generations equipping themselves with exaggerated abilities to fufil the duties we ask of them......

Dogs know that in order to survive, they have to depend on man.......and they know that the only way man would ever keep them alive is if man is also dependent on dogs, and that man would need them and benefit as well, so they do this by being resourceful, and allow them selves to please man anyway possible.....to ensure survival......

This is sort of like working for the boss to earn your salary....as they are being trained, and evolution begins with the following generations, they become accustomed to doing these duties, and it becomes their way of life....hardwork soon becomes something they enjoy doing........and like a game, that is all that they would want to do, and for their entire lives, they would dedicate to doing it......they find this purpose thru enjoying doing something they would do everyday.......

also, nature enhances their abilities and that urge to do so.......


i begin thinking and feel that it is true about what it says, that nature actually makes us enjoy doing the things we need and must do to ensure survival..............

well, of course...i started arguing against it...i have to study, soon i will have to enter army, then i will have to find a job and work like hell.......doing all these things because i need to survive...that sure doesn't sound like fun......and i'm convinced that, everyone as well, that we would certainly complain about life every single day because every day in life seems just like a chore......

but then i thought again......that nature did not make any exceptions for us humans.....(i guess)

i believe i dislike going to school....i believe if that there was no pressure or force by others, i would not go to school....... however...i go to school everyday not because i'm being forced to.....nothing can pressure you enough to do something you do not want......if we really hate something, we would always behave like rebels and sacrifice our lives and not go school.......

and sooner than we know it, an illusion perhaps, our lives seem to revolve around our work, our studies...even though we seem to hate it, it cannot be untangled so easily....and then....as nature had planned it, maybe maybe maybe we're enjoying work or study unconciously......to students, this i know, school is life.....we think about books, subjects, results, examinations, friends, teachers, the toilets, the lectures, the food?...................

think about it.....

also....there were talking about dogs in this new era, some of them are being spoilt....some owners 'love' and spoil their dogs too much that they become slaves to dogs...........going too often to doggie salons, doggie restaurants, doggie branded clothing and accessories......think paris hilton and her chi hua hua.....(she owes one?)............dog behavior resembles that of their owners........for example, woen cheng's dog dodger, is fat, low in stamina...and like to eat a lot...wherenever we eat, it will bark non stop.....jkjkjk......they don't do any sort of work.....and life to them is almost purposeless..............so if you truly love your dog, don't spoil them, and give them a purpose., then they'll be happy..........i guess.........

if you need answers to your own life.....go to the dogs, or cats, or fish or giraffe............