Thoughts of a 'Man'

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don't know whats up with today, but for every other day, i never fail to fall asleep at every lesson, whether it is of choice or not...........today, i was so 'happy' if that is the right word....i begin listening in class, hoping i can pick up some useful details and pointers..........

excuse me for the lousy english in my entries....

today, was when everything that is fucked up happened..........i was late for school since i missed 3 or 4 buses......this was my sixth time..i sighed as i handed my ezlink to the teacher to be scanned...and it being held hostage, since this was teh sixth time.......i stood at a corner for 40 mins, since the teachers were going to each person, each group to lecture them and stuff....and since i have a high record this year, i had to wait till everyone else was done.....i had to write the form for the 3rd time, and reasons for being late and all....and being one of those in a 'special early bird' programme where i have to be in college 20 mins earlier then everyone else in school,i expect an intensive 'grind'(i'm not being horny).......

throughout the years, a student would learn that..when teacher sense remorse while he/she is reprimanding you, they'll be light with the words........so i faked remorse..i'm not someone who walks around with big pride......blah blah blah...its all over, 45 full mins of stoning........its just my day.....2 CWOs, and 3 detentions and my debt with be paid...and a meeting session with my parents about me being late........and i guess there would be another one with the principal regarding my results..

now to my results....it is like shit again.......i hope history repeats itself....because this time i didn't study....i always do well in the end..i hope it happens this way...like some conspiracy theory about 911...to allow the collapse of the twin towers, just to wage war against the middle east for some resource..i'll become the most improved student with triple As..lol...from an EEUUU....i'm taking no bets about it, and i'm begginging to study....study works for me, when its not about taking exams and doing assignments, i march on my own pace.....

seriously i can't stall for a bit.....i already forgot to collect my ezlink, and forgot to do detention today....this is how the punishments and rules feel stupid to me, that i can forget about it....

while i was running at the track just now...this fly entered my mouth.........it tasted like minty grass.......it was still moving around in my throat for a few mins i think....not sure if it was my mind playing tricks on me...but i felt this poking feeling in my throat, and the taste and scent that lingers in the mouth for a few minutes.......

i suck so much in hockey....i thinking of someways to change....its not so much skills i think....i just suck...i hope i can be a worthy player by the end of the next 16 days that closes down on the A div competition.....but honestly, i doubt i'll contribute much, even if i change at the end of all this.........coach and players already do not have faith in me...either that, or they couldn't be bothered since the start......just hope it turns out well, and not be another failed venture...........................

My fucking mantra for the 'Age of Fucking Up' a chapter in my personal bible: Roll down all the fuck ups along the way. Drag it insistently along if i must...Nothing can stop me once i'm fucked up.