Thoughts of a 'Man'

having all the 'oldies' not so old...50s 60s 70s? playing on my comp now....what an effect....sound quite good, but shity as well.....

i think its time to neglect...

by the way....if you've been observing these days...the full moon happens to have a halo around the it....seemingly like an gigantic eyeball above you, or some alienship about to come abduct you...wonderfull...first time obeserving it.. me and godric thought it was the moon that is directly above us...lol...but its not hahaha..stupid man....the moon is always directly above us, and always visible....(when dark, it is still tehre).................

halo appears because its winter now, and there are plenty of ice in the atmosphere, thus thru refraction, i guess due to greater degree of refraction, light that should be surrounding the moon is refracted further and thus a halo...i guess?

anyway, life is fucked up man......hockey camp was alright i guess....enjoyed it quite a bit..........a bit...it wasn't anything bad...though maybe part of the team felt it sucks, but i guess its ok....and as for unpleasant stuff that happened, i sincerely think that it was mostly the fault of our team itself...everyone just lazy siah...........want to go home, everybody just sit and look while some others clean up...can help and can go home earlier rite...as well as being selfish and all...ah....ok la, its not like they have bad intentions....wanna say it out, but its not like anybody will see my perspective....
the good part, was more or less the interaction during the camp..just talk and talk, don't have to worry about anything else.......supernatural to religion to war to politics and concluding with judgement day(stuff we talked about on the last day)........haha...Remember the Titans(movie) was great too.

anyway, finding it hard to even get on with the next few minutes of life...feeling like this all the same, all the while....deciding if to sleep now...didn't sleep much last nite, and i don't know if to go to sleep....boarded the train towards the wrong direction just now and had to waste 15 mins to ride back excluding the supposed trip i should have had...........unconciously....i felt how stupid everything was, and how i was....everything is stupid man....sometimes in life, you could be so sure about something, believing you could be doing something or moving in the right direction, all until you really realised you've seriously fucked up....whats worse than this now is absolutely not having anything in mind......music to me more of a hobby than a passion(haven't been playing)........i need something to drive me.....

now i can't tell the world that music had saved my life.

will be going to sleep now....sorry for i have whined again..............

I wonder, i hope that some idle and restless person will identify their own lives similar to that of mine after reading my blog....LOL...sorry for bad english....