Thoughts of a 'Man'

well, i went to the funeral today, after going for venture meeting.........this experience, my observations.....had been not what i've 'expected'...everything that happened had been awkward i feel.........don't know if i'm going to send him off tmr.........................

sometimes...if we are not careful, we might just lose the ones we love dearly....seeing yesterday and the scene today....was quite depressing....hard to explain too.....

anyway, something like this could happen to just about anybody..........all i can think of is cherish people, love them when they're around...

as for me, i don't know how its possible....i feel that i am quite distant from peoples' hearts............i'll try i guess.....hope its not too late.......................

another thing.......i don't know if i'm tuned in the same frequency........picked up faint faint signs?.....i keep thinking that its just me thats being hypersensitive......anyway, from past experiences, its just not possible......sigh....don't know what to think of it...............another delusion.....since evidence plainly states that you're left out of the picture, non existent.....