Thoughts of a 'Man'

wanted to blog, but then decided i was too tired, or not in the mood...but i've so much to say...now i'm back to this entry..................

many 'irrelevant' and new things are happening in my life.....well, i kind of saw nothing of it....then i thought it could be the change of this small segment of my life...that positive change that i wish to see....................now it has caused me to be lost.....

ok...'irrelevant' as in i never saw it coming.........never saw it or its(many it) would happen in my life..........people and all.............sigh......

was watching this video on youtube, 'Why do you wake up each day?'.....i have no answer to it....seriously...its getting nowhere...unless the omens described above that have appeared would continue and remain permanent....i would have nothing to live for, for now........................it could probably explain why i even sleep more than 12 hours now that the holidays are here.......and staying awake for about 8-9 hours before sleeping again...........sigh...........

maybe i whine just a little too much............it could be the annoying part of me that is dying to get out or some desperate call for attention or something...................

just got back from obs...the mobile one, living in tents and all for 5 days.......oh yah...could be use for nyaa....now that i remember.........wahah........like steve(our instructor) said that it not all fun, but i guess the experience was memorable and worth it.....not sure how to describe it....yeah special of course.....i think we possibly had the longest land expedition ever......a route that was suppose to cover from one end of the ubin to the other......i am not exxagerating..other groups did probably only half the island.....and our first check point(and the nearest) is very very very possibly further than all the check points of another group put together.......we we took about 5 hours or less to reach the first check point(including time taken for lunch and breaks).....WAHAHAHA....about 3/4 of the distance from one end to the other end of the island....while holding the frikking heavy haversack in the unpredictable cursed weather..........sun, rain, sun rain.......wah......and the 'meaningful' challenges......and then we have to walk back 9/16(unsure?) the length of the island to reach the campsite....which is 3/4 of the distance we walked to reached the first check point......and yes...we only got to one checkpoint...........just to let you know, that the instructors were the ones that plan the routes, and was not preplanned............

steven the instructor, was pissing the group off from the first day onwards........and onlychanged for the better, everything changed for the better, since end of day 3, after the tiring hiking trekking and at the quarry dip...........that gave the group, or at least the guys and one girl a 180 degree turn for the better........honestly, everybody in the group hated the first 3 days.........other groups were enjoying every part of it...we were hating the start of it..............we were rushing every single second from day one onwards till day 3.....it got us pissed...while all the groups were slacking..we were rushing here and there to pitch tents in the dark and all....pack bags..squeezing into 3 tents....because it was close to lights off.....16 of us...thats 6,5,5 in each tent....whatever got the group that was not really bonded together was actually the instructor that we dislike at the start...for talking too much...and not having time to pioritize...a common enemy that everybody complained about.....

of course.....we realised his good intentions from the start since day one...but it got irritating, as steve guided us as if he had such strong social responsibility for us to endure it through with the help of each other...and to change our lives and all from that shithole we lived in in singapore...for us to mature.........however after quarry dip, we liked him a lot more....and subsequently after that....the halo started appearing above his head.................

6 jcs....obs said it was the first time..6 jcs were participating at one time, usually only 3.....being MOE's 'cream of the crop'..........uuughghhg....(got what use?!).....

guess i'll type a lot more when my itch stops....been enduring since the start of this morning...now its still unbearable.................like a thousand ant bites.....i sleep to lose the feelings....i don't wanna rely on painkillers either.....