Thoughts of a 'Man'

Ah.....don't really have the motivation i had in the morning to study....so i shall just write about the small emotional ride i had yesterday.....

Dreaded waking up yesterday don't know why.....was quite satisfied with the jamming the day before though it was so short, but at least it gave me the confidence that the performance would turn out right..with all that we were going to show....
I managed to reach school anyway,tormenting that stupid rain while in my slippery converse all-star. Every step is risking a disaster.

Met up with the other peeps that i was playing for at backstage...I wasn't nervous or anything, wasn't really eagar also....But everyone at backstage seemed rather busy and caught up. It didn't feel great. Wanted to go somewhere else to chill or something, but it always felt like this. Something was missing...........k then the morning assembly at hall and then the concert went on.

Was quite impressed with the first breakdance....but the dead audience....its pure silence, soundless as compared to the rehearsals..After that, the stuff that followed on wasn't boring either. I just walked around during all these. WEnt to the canteen or the third floor to check out the audience or see the performance, since later, the back stage had a lot of ppl..so was it on the third floor. but there was a better view.

When it came to our turn, wasn't enthused or anything, just wanted it to run smoothly. So that initial jump that me and angmoh were to do was only like 50% a jump...k...so it goes.....and my muting damn...keep producing that cool sound in yuuwaka that i didn't intend..tried to stop it but can't..hah.......reaching the first chorus..evan started solo already..What was in my head at that time was "he is going to solo through the chorus and through the 4 bars of intro riff later, though what a rather long solo it would be." I looked at sanjay and angmoh, like 'WTF?!".......then when we entered the intro riff, evan stopped thinking that we just ended the intro when we were just going into it....but anyway, supposedly it should run smoothly.and enter the 2nd prechorus......but i don't know why we stopped.............................................................................................................................

wasn't disappointed or anything, just quite sian that we didn't finish it....could have been great, or worse. Exchanged guitar for bass and now was standing at the audience left, our right, behind plain jane(still don't know her name...lol..not that plain, just a term for fun since the arts day audition..).....forgot where abra was standing...made a few mistakes with the song...not sure if the audience knew, but serchung told me later he heard my mistakes......so ppl must have heard it......OHHHHHHHHHHHHh...............now ppl will know how really sucky i am.....

after the set, everyone dissolved into thin air or something, was with christian and evan most of the time after that...........then the show ended...was messing around with guitar and the bass later......some rugger came, and threw me away with his mad guitar skills......it was mad mad mad...

didn't feel the rush to go back to secondary school. but as i was on my way, felt like i need to see those common faces i haven't seen for such a long time. i wished the train would speed. then when i got off the train...really pace up my steps..but have to watch out from falling all the time.....when i reached school finally saw the ppl i wanted to meet...some from my class and even those who i don't really know, just wanted to feel that environment i use to have again, something which i really hate before, and still do...but was part of it, and certainly would have felt some warmth now that i see it again......met up with some of the teachers...quite grateful to them, but never had the opportunity to thank them, even yesterday...but there was no regrets...this is me, the person with so many words, but refuses to speak up...........

there was ms chen who believed i could do it, mrs yong who taught us sosososososososo well in chemistry. mr ho also, taught us a lot and like mrs yong and ms chen, had faith in the class....mr murali, who gave me an A1 for cca? i not sure if he was the one the permissioned it..but i didn't feel like i deserved it....at times, he felt i was capable and to handle responsibility, but knew i would escape it if i could...then there was ms low who fought teaching like a war.......shall mentioned other teachers in my life another time, to prevent this post from getting too long..it already is..............and haven't started with hanging out with my some of my ex classmates..

So some of us guys of 4c1...decided to head to town instead of following the girls to WEST MALL!!!...wth......so boring there....but woeny, jj, linkang, and weijun went i think......so the other guys, Me, shiping, serchung, jeremy, jianwen, cheeping...haha....went out with a bang, first with the commitment to splash any amount of money when necessary.........when this was decided, any grievances of parting and separation with money could be avoided...

instead of going to sakae sushi, which had to wait until 3 for the buffet, and many of us thought that the quality of food that is low.......(which i have not tried personally)....we walked around wheel lock....then decided we were too hungry...we went to Suki sushi instead at cineleisure....which is about $3 more, but starts from 12 to 5......and there are wider wider wider choices to choose from i think.....shall point out some of the good stuff, too bad i'm not into taking pictures.....had this dish called nigiri, a sushi that is wraped in sashimi topped with lobster salad..., also had oysters that were baked in tomatoes and mozzeralla.....and that salmon skin we ordered did not come at all..arghh...besides all the common stuff that we had......

at about 4-5, we walked to plaza sing for some expensive icecream.....andersons.........as we were walking there, there was this weird working adult carrying a yoyo, who was walking just beside us...he was doing the normal up and down, with the palm & yoyo facing up, forgot whats it called....then shipz, thought he wasn't looking, bent a little and incorporated kungfu into his imaginary loop the loop actions....and went 'ciu ciu ciu'....we all started roaring in laughter and the guy beside us, kept staring at us after that....HAHAHA....after the ice cream, we went to cathay to slack....its nice to slack there because there are no shops and little ppl....at least at the first few floors...haha...but there seem to be many shops that are opened already....we went to the basement which was opened...and slacked at the fish pond for about an hour......we couldn't decide on a movie to watch before this...tried to ask them to watch devil wears prada, but they wanted to watch barnshed...wtf...but then we decided none was actually very nice..so we went to slack instead.....................later when we decided that we must watch a movie....hehe, we bought devil wears prada....there was this shop, at 3rd floor, which exhibits antique typewriters and antique phones, some old books, like shakespears works and lewis carroll and looking through the hour glass....one of the note on the paper says something like 'i like visual attention but not the physical affection'(something like that?)...haha cool...though its for the typewriter, i guess it refers to the pretty shop owner herself about not touching her..lol...haha, jeremy touched one of them possibly to get the attention of her, and it did..haha..'don't touch it, i cannot find another to replace if it spoils'(something like this) with that english accent...it sold 'designer papers'....like one of the iprint shops......the shop owner counts with an abacus on one of the 2 counters...which ships spotted...lol...east-meets-west-chinese-chopstick-stuck-on-hair-babe.............uses an apple laptop too....what an obsession with style....ROCK MAh WORld

at 730, we entered the cinema.........it wasn't filled, though it was its opening day(which i didn't knew) and it was at the Grand cinema.....but was like only half filled.....wow, some of the upcoming movie are going to be great.......some aztec movie by mel gibson, some police show, with dicaprio and markwahlberg and mattdamon, and jack nicholson...in the trailer it shows jack nicholson manipulating all of them...but its obvious it wouldn't be him that is the bad guy in the movie....what movie would show that in the trailer.......

The show started with one of the most horny scenes in the movie......wow...shall not say that i'm into fashion or what.....wanted to watch this movie because i favoured it the most yesterday, and probably is interesting....the movie though a simple storyline and backdrop, showcases a number of themes....mostly about struggling and working hard to suceed, and about being at the top of tthe coporate world....it also hints about selling out, selling your soul to the devil....to suceed....its easy to contemplate, and put yourself in her shoes....one of the lessons learnt, "don't whine".

its been a long time since i went to the cinema....haven't been to the cinema a lot this year....only remembered watching this, pirates, king and the clown....can't rmb what else...so the cinema was like an experience for me yesterday..haha.....oh yah, she's the man...

so went home about 10 plus yesterday.....quite early...wondered why we didn't hang out a little longer....it was quite terrific yesterday..........

k, i'm tired of going any longer....this post is extremely long....i am extremely long winded.....ppl talk about a day in 2 to 3 paragraphs...i go like essay long.......have more to say, but shall end here....