Thoughts of a 'Man'

the events today are just too weird.......i'm happy for my band as 'they' think that they've all learnt something from today's flop.............as for me, i'm shit......i've forgotten my lyrics today....arghh!H...am really guilty, i'm now the one with all the negative vibes....

and i can't sing, i can't play, i'm not calm, i'm not good looking....can't play well.....wonder how ppl view me....of course i'm the invisible wall.......

ah....ziqi, stop feeling like this....there is nothing you can do sulking about it

how should i say this.....i really have lost all hope kinda....even the only thing i have to be happy about, i'm not really sure of..................................since refraction exists.....even if it seems impossible, light can bend away from you...esp bend around you...thus making something invisible...........................................................eat it like a man, and let anyone who wants to laugh, laugh....