Thoughts of a 'Man'

typing this now...as i have my sandwich for dinner...italian bmt.....its been a long time since i had pepperoni, salami...whatever the difference...the 'sandwich artist' making my sandwich was very kind...i asked for lots of pickles and olives...she gave me tons...woohoo! i bought a 6 inch thinking i had no appetite after looking at emotional inducing 'sights.'...but after i had my first bite....i realsied i should have gotten 1 foot...

ahhhhhh....finally its the end of mid years...its such a great relief for me....before this i was feeling numb as i always have to everything that happens around me....finally i feel everything is quite nice again.....

anyway, after the physics paper, the last paper for me, i spent the rest of the day with the hockey guys.....playing hockey and all.....tiring myself out feels great...i haven't excercised for a long time....and i got tired really quickly, but it still felt great, throwing all that stress out of my mind.....2-7...of running about......quite tired....i was qorried i might fall sick, for i have not slept well to mug for physics, but luckily i didn't.......

went to watch germany against argentina once i got home and left again to weijun's house....woencheng and junjie came....well....i was behind germany for the past 2 world cups, and i was bored by them not winning, but this year, i still supported them......nice goal during the match...and nice keeping by lehmann....i was quite high when they won....nice nice.....

slept little again.....woke up..left wj house at 1140...went to serchung's house supposedly to create some effects and syncronisation for our coming performance...but well.....we didnt really play......chungs's bro got back from camp, and we went to watch superman......well, i was great....its a nice movie, but i can't really explain why is it nice...the movie just make you feel how noble superman is almost through out the show...it has little action, since superman is invincible...he is god mode, he has all powers....even when cyclops was in the show, even if he did use his optic blast...superman just would finish him in one second(not exaggerating...his powers are exaggeratingly overwhelming.) as any good film would..i left the cinema with a strong impression.......not forgetting that the intro to the movie was great, they should make it 3d, and provide 3d glasses.....watch it and you'll know why.....my mind was swaying along a little to the effect that the images flashed had on me.....also....the movie made me curious about superman's planet....'graveyard', he compares it to.....wow...wonder what he saw...

anyway, after the movie...i wandered my way around alone, as i didn't feel like going home.....but i eventually boarded the train.....on the train i was thinking about some particular person...got off at boon lay at about 1840 .....anyway, i went into jp and bought my dinner, subway again....singaopre idol was suppose to be here.....ppl are waiting...but they haven't got out..

don't wanna address this initially, but this is a blog and i'm keeping it as a dairy anyway...and nobody reads my shit...ok...now, all the people that i have the least tiny wee bit of feeling for, has a boyfriend, the relationships they have are built on concrete...lol.........................at least i wont have to even have a chance to feel like shit again....

this gives me the reason to concentrate on....what?!..... studies? music?having fun?.........my mum was helping me with chinese the other day.....shes somewhat of a self taught speed reader....what a superpower...makes me feel so much hopeless....i'm good in nothing that i do...............................................................

the next week, i will be doing what i enjoy......the preparation for the moment is as great as the moment itself...well, its my 5th time preparing together with the likeminded ppl......wish everything turns out great that day....(8th of this month).......

i'm signing out, i'm getting bored.....