Thoughts of a 'Man'

just want to write a little...haven't been blogging.....today like every other existing day...i haven't been studying much...so i gonna start studying after i finish typing this entry and study till 11pm before i go to sleep...been sleeping late like at 1 am for the past 3 days....quite getting use to it..i'm not really tired....but i cannot continue like this even though i feel nothing....my body will probably give way one day without me realising it or some how my can't be bothered, tired looking face will look even much more tired and wrinkled..... ):-(

i just got notice on more things to do for scouts....omg......sian...

went through another hard day of school.....i go thru school everyday...not sure if i really learn anything...it feels so lethargic.....so sick...so sleepy every lesson......and hungry at the same time even if i had just something to eat...and the food, omg......can't stand the food....its like gulping trash just to satiate that hunger, but none of it feels good...ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................i played soccer after pe today.....had netball during pe.....i think its really stupid....its quite a stupid sport....sorry for hating it...and very sissy....the soccer match today was really really anti climax.....<----the title for this entry....but the passes today were nice....our team just kept passing here and there, but none of us, esp me are those types that chiong in and shoot...so we did a lot of nice passes and many near the goal, but just no one to shoot it in...until gabe join our team, and started getting the ball in...wah nice....the other team scored goals too, but their goals are like dribble dribble dribble...we can't be bothered to tackle because we have that mentality that he cannot score.....but in the end score....

shall update a little on the recent bands that i have watched...wow....the local band scene is 'efferverscening'...lol.....its setting the level for local bands, and this would cause bands to get better and better as bands realise each other.....as local music would just get better and better...when each band will want to create better stuff as more and more bands emerge.....can't wait when our band ever breaks into the scene, we are still under preparation, from my perspective, kind of not ready to join any competition or play a gig to public or anything......we are not ready from my point of view, and won't go in for the experience or anything like that......wanna go in enthusiastic at the same time ready to bomb...we wanna join and win tons of $$$$ if its a competition...and soely for $$$ if its a competition.....so must wait like a yr?...experience, we'll just get from school performances like always.....we are improving, but we don't jam that often......there is no point jamming non stop esp when some of our skills either needs to get better, or some polishing...and also get started we writing stuff.....for now, we've got great equipment, great dreams and a great studio to make all this happen....

rmb ppl, no matter at whatever you do.....its not all about working hard...working hard is just a really small part..i guess...its more of 'understanding' what you're doing....(can't express this).....even if it means you have to sit under the bodhi tree..........once you understand, you'll achieve even if you work just enough....

note: don't read on......................just some boring points i'm writing down to rmb...

oh yah the baybeats concert was something really refreshing for me...i only went for the third day and for the last few hours towards the end.....but it was great, band after band back to back....and the ronin concert in school, it wasn't till yesterday that i realise they were going to come yesterday to play....i think their songs are alright....quite simple in the sense of the sound....i guess they are more focused on appealing to audiences for now.....nothing wrong with that....and the semi moshing during the concert was quite fun.....but it was more of having fun by doing something stupid than actually being high and wild....just can't help it i guess...

and electrico were good too at baybeats.....electrico songs from the new album hip city is not bad....their songs have lots of detail, more than the previous album....i bought it....first cd i bought with money..haha....always had what i wanted to hear.....and probably to support the local band scene now, before it dies and end up regretting it......i hate it that the organisers of these music festivals are doing this for money and setting up the industry....but i have to do it if not there'll be no money to have any of these anymore.....

sigh...its 11 now...how am i going to study?????????????????????? i'll read a bit for half and hour......................................