Thoughts of a 'Man'

after conversing with a few friends after a small last min gathering of a few good friends....i feel like china or the soviet union...BACKWARD...backward in the sense that, they're occupied and fufilled or achieving it in life...well me...i'm just rotting on my seats....i need a great leap forward...
also, i took a solo walk again today....its my sort of meditation....and some things that just motivated me...and kept me from thinking....i've yet to make a minor decision...well two minor decisions...including which event i should go to this fri..... talked to another old friend, had inclined me a few degree towards going one of them..but still unsure..hmm...but its small anyway..well, another thing that has been helpful these days, were the conversations...after a brief pondering, realised that conversations are really hard to come by....rare opportunities...in short...lazy to write..life has taken a 180 degree turn...just when i thought i dread the present, and every next day...i'm finally beggining to feel great abt the tommrrows..."amazing grace...how sweet the sound..."... -_-"...lol..

life has been slow paced for 4 yrs....the surroundings allow me so, so its not exactly helpful...well....hope to change it from now on!!....FAST AND FURIOUS!!!!!.......

*HIGH-ENERGY DRUM SOLO*

well....Why control you life? Just live life and let life bring you places...in nicer nicer terms...some words i saw that matched, "Time spent by yourself right now will be more enjoyable than rushing around trying to show your face in all the 'right' places. Let love come and find you, rather than the other way around." lol....guess where i took that from...