Thoughts of a 'Man'

if youre wondering whats up with me, i guess i've been keeping things to myself again lately....must be the exams again i guess....

argh....words are stupid...but i must endure and go on typing i guess....its like i'm struck with paralysis, and its like i want to move, but can't...

i shall go on, and express myself with 'daily living examples'...so bear with my lameness, its because of the 'paralysis' i talked about up there that i have to do this..lol..

i still remembered how i couldn't stuck myself enough to the liquid when i was on the surface, on the verge of evapourating! and 'PIU!'(imagine the sound from a laser gun...)....i didn't hold tightly enough to the molecules around me and i was sent away....well, for a gas particle which is moving at high speeds(high k.e) and random motion, there are probably close to zero chances for it to return to the same group of molecules or molecule, for this matter...EVEN IF IT WAS TIGHTLY ENCLOSED IN A JAR.....with regrets, though this has answered my question, only that it is based on a zero chance...well, accepting the zero is one thing, accepting the zero when it isn't zero(low chance, doesn't mean no chance..lol..) is another thing...

well, there are high chances of returning to the liquid though,through condensation, with other molecules... i just hope the forces of attraction are aligned long enough for me to return to the liquid...(this needs more elaboration) imagine the...hmm...was it a death star or star destroyer? imagine it trying to tractor in the millenium falcon...it has to keep the tractor beam there so it get sucked all the way to its....whatever you call that...(i had the word in my head for a while..)..if you turn the beam off,......the millenium falcon is free to move again, so the initial 'on' of the tractor beam is negligible, if it is to off later, since the final result of it turned on for a short while and not turning it on at all is the same...going back to liquid, i hope the force of attraction doesn't wear off....

the ideal state is liquid

this is some totally unnecessary geek talk...my brain is boring, i can't express it beautifully with nature or something.(i'll try next time)...and i realised that in a liquid, molecules can still move freely...so the point that i want to emphasize is lost...i'm tempted to delete this, since its totally irrelevant, but it has become 'Art' with a capital A...so ppl can just relate or infer to whatever...

ehhh....i not trying to be cryptic....don't judge just because i keep my mouth shut..for this matter, and well because of the person that i am...i shut my mouth too much...don't judge..