Thoughts of a 'Man'

wish i had it.... (title).....oh...god, sigh...not going to curse at how fast time is moving again... shall neither express sadness nor happiness, lol.. spent a great deal of today on music....rewriting lyrics of this song called butterfly...added about 10 new songs yesterday to my 'collection', had not enough time(2 days) to really 'taste'(my limited vocab...someone gimme another word to express this!!) them yet...... nothing can really take my mind off the things that are bothering me... its sick, theres just nothing i can do about it...zzz...

its going to be a slow bothersome uphill battle from tonight onwards, which will not end till 3 weeks later, where i'll have a break at least...i'm talking about my studies here...haven't done much for preparation, i'll really die if i don't..haha...seriously, old habits cannot change...i do see its possible though, but i haven't succeded in it yet.....

what i really need is a 'Get Out Of Jail, Piece My Life Back' Card...

Life feels really mild for me right now, after that 'giving up' incident, forgot when...wonder how is it going to be once i return to school this monday...need to seriously start 'Operation: No Life', running back home straight after school.....you can say that i'm trying to adopt the way of the Jedi...

anyway, gotta go buy dinner now!....Hmmm...YUm....Hokkien Mee..i seriously have an addiction for it, since the start of this holiday...i've been having it at least twice a week i guess...it has cured my addiction for long john silver's though...hmm..though i still desire!!....You can say i'm using morphine to cure my opium addiction...lol except that during 'then', nobody knew it was the same thing..lol..

oh yeah, and btw, my perspective of changing, is just to become a better person everyday, for her, the future hers and for all the ppl around me.....i've realised that it has improved my life... its growing up or just a process of maturity maybe?

also, had a hair cut yesterday....-_-" lol....(details)