Thoughts of a 'Man'

what a life she has...can't put it in words...but its good i guess..anyway, no point being a boy making such a big fuss about liking a girl...hmm...guess i was childish..whining about my feelings, what a uncool way to treat it..lol...must be cool..at least now i've established something, though its fragile...there are good signs too i guess...not exactly very good, but can analyse my situation from it...i guess i'm quite satisfied for now, thats all i can say....

and for a long time now, i can have PEACE....finally...

i guess political stability needs to be acheived first before there can be any domestic growth...

also, i have a bad feeling about this...fear that there is something that is beyond my control, external events can't be controlled...if only i had deterrence from the begginging, there wouldn't be any of these in the first place, probably i wont even have this blog...hope the answer she gave wasn't a lie...

external events or not, control or not...i must perservere...venice is a lesson to be learnt from, i shouldn't just sit and do nothing or tear myself down because of external influences...

lesson is that i should keep moving on.....