Thoughts of a 'Man'

why are we so unsure when we are making important desicions even when we are clear of our feelings, our thoughts don't agree!........................why does it have to be something that decides my life that had me realising it..

i wonder if i could ever act on my feelings....without the nuisance of my thoughts...

peeps out there, my interpretation of feelings and thoughts could be different...could be rite or wrong...you might be thinking along the same lines....well if not, use your own interpretation to comprehend...

on my case, realise that these two are different things...what goes on in our head are thoughts, in our hearts are feelings...its like a bug in a system that you have to chance upon it before actually realising its there, like how most of us discover the world...well, i never realise these feelings and thoughts were different things....maybe i knew, but never reflected upon it to realise that its two different things...

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was reading another person's blog...guess he was talking bout the world and all....
me? i've lost hope in this world....i'm just saving everyone i can with me i guess... i guess i believe i have the right influence...well, my studies are poor, doubt i'll be a scientist or doctor or astronaut(what i realy want to be) or lawyer or teacher....but inside everyone i think, or at least me, lies the believe that we can change the world..what better way than to start now...been acting on this terms since secondary one...after leaving my pri school where everything was perfect, here everything was much colder... and i'm right, then censorship should be censored...Ignorance is a greater danger than knowledge...

i guess i done some courageous acts too, usually no one stops to realise..lol..courageous as in out of good and pure intent for the sake of other people...if one suceeds, he can give emotional strenght to the ppl around him..e.g moralizing an army...

i guess i kind of run thoughts sometimes on how to achieve world peace and how it has to be done...but world peace can hardly be acheived...it can't be done immediately...if i was serious about this, i would start a organisation....because this can't be done in one human lifespan...you need followers, strong believers and leaders...if the leaders of the future are weak, all our efforts will be wasted even if sucess is within our reach....
first, we'll have to make the world understand..call it preaching if you like, but not in the name of god..............................this alone will take more than a life time, other steps should be left to the future leaders for the right course of action during their time...if not things would turn out, think communism...it was pure, but was followed too strictly, ppl should do accordingly

well, i guess there were many pure world peace ideals, but they all became ugly...when ideas of acheiveing peace is different we conflict..... from the beggining, from a man's helplessness and hopelessness led him to give up the world, in search of spiritual being in his heart or god...which led to many philosophies and teachings...all this being the building stones,of religion......

well, religion was good, if there was only one religion in this world(ref to bold words...if there was only one idea of achieveing peace, there would be no conflict...) everything would work out...but no, there are the births of many religions(or ideas of acheiving peace) leading to conflict, since everyone had so much faith in their wills....some sacrifice their lifes, knowing that even if they lose their life, their 'will' lives on...

in short, everyone wants peace so badly we fight for it...if we all agree, there will be peace... leave out religion, it is where religion has failed...i'm not saying to stop believing in god, but changing the world in the name of your religion isn't working..

well, but many ppl have already understood all those words i have said up there, and turned to something else to acheive world peace...that is POLITICS and shortly after that, birth of political systems!!.....ah good intent, but politicians, supposedly our heroes, are increasingly being related to evil....because of starting WARS!!!!why?..same thing, conflicting ideas of acheiving peace..

except a small minority who use religion in politics, that is no different from religion anyway......if you call the iraq war, a holy war....

whatever i've said is all bullshit k....i don't know where all that came from, but could be from the possibility of kingdom of heaven which i watched yesterday....but nah, these were not from it...or at least communism isn't found in kingdom of heaven..

Well, i guess the best source to world peace right now is TELEVISION....including other sources like internet...or media..whatever...the very thing we believe corrupts our mind are actually something that can save us...that why, read the very top, no censorship...esp, NO CENSORSHIP TO SELF-EXPRESSION.....the other day, the crossfire show on ch u was critisizing blog about its dangers...god this adults don't understand that whatever can make us understand the people around us is so much better...TRANSPARENCY!!! if humans never wore any clothes, we'll be really honest ppl...

not convinced? ppl use to think wars are heroic....everyone wanted war...when televisions were invented, when ppl start seeing deaths on tv...thats when ppl were anti-war.....

last lesson, i guess all those are just crap....we just need to do things for the sake of others...my interpretation of courage...the movie 'pay it forward'...if we begin with the very basic, all the above trouble will be avoided, and we don't have to go thru the trouble of watching tv, and me telling others to watch tv..haha..
ziqi-8 49am....