Thoughts of a 'Man'

what a day...long unbearing remedial, short purposeless journey to IMM, can't eat well during lunch, had buffet lunch(for mother's day).............after that, walked around orchard a lot...looking for that genuine gift...(sorry, my blog today is quite boring, even though the day was interesting, i am really very tired to write properly)..from 4 30 pm.scaled far east plaza....nothing....takashimaya....nothing, heeren...it was 8pm..it was hard work....i wish i could tell you how i suffered....all the time i felt lost, i don't know what to get...i had some idea...but it was just very hard to get that perfect gift..sigh.....there was always tomorrow, but i was quite determined to get the gift today...went past these swatch shop....i really wanted to get the watch, but i had not enough money...so decided to come back another day with more money...price wasn't an issue, not that i wanted to get something expensive...but i just wanted something genuine...so i put everything on hold, and we went for dinner at yoshinoya at cineleisure...

well we were eating...i have to be demoralised again...we discussed that if it was too expensive, she might not accept...sigh..there goes it...i felt disappointed...running the scenario thru my head though, that she might not accept...sigh..so ended up walking up to 'more than words' upstairs..
got this big piglet...i didn't thought of the fact that it was big,just thought maybe she would like it.. and i bought it...wrapped it, and now i was face with a problem...i never realise i was buying something so big...who knows, she might not even accept something like this!...seriously, nothing exactly went thru my head when i was considering buying it...then later i was thinking how i was going to pass it to her,it was big you know.....if i meet her outside, would she even meet me?..

went back to taka...chung bought his tab book, and we just sat and talk for awhile till about 9 40 pm, we had to go...long day sigh...

it was too late though, sigh...felt like the day before valentine's day too...i wanted to get something, but i couldn't, spent the whole day searching...but just couldn't find 'it'...i wanted something genuine, not a soft toy or something....but i guess, thats probably the only thing she would accept rite now...

i dare say this and will never take back my words, that she is the best that ever happen to me...omg..why did i do this in the first place...destroy everything...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...