Thoughts of a 'Man'

This post is titled 'Angst' because serchung frequently uses it, and i'm feeling a bit angry, or rather, been feeling quite pissed for most of the day...Was really pissed at the start of day...lol...i don't know why...haha..sure feels like shit, then....felt like that all the way until halfway thru chem lesson(first lesson after recess)...i made use of the 'angst' , and tried to vent it in a more cheerful(i guess..) manner.... The whole day, the 'irritant' which shall not be named made my day worse...lol..during chem lesson, he poured water onto my seat, i unknowingly sat down...wasn't really bother by it at all though...felt like usual, but the heat in me needed a vent, and i just took my ice mountain water bottled and emptied lots of h2o on that damn 'irritant', without realising i went too far(if it was for someone normal like me.)...but to the 'irritant', i guess its just...

was feeling tired whole of physics lesson, but i forced myself up...and understood much of the lesson i guess...after physics lesson, returning to class, 'irritant' was again on it irritating me...but we were next to her(there are different hers in the history of all my posts i guess..readers, don't assume the identity, but then again, your assumption could just be right..)...and again, i wasn't bothered, but my attention was diverted to her instead...weird feeling ran thru me...lol...just felt like hugging her...haha...felt some sort of connection, (even though nothing connected, just how i felt at that pt of time..), wonder if it is possible for her to feel the same during the exact same pt of time, but its quite impossible if you think realistically....

after school, i went home early(2nd consecutive day, have to start studying..even though not much have been done..),...so did she....and i made this damn huge mistake of asking the 'irritant' to leave with me....cause he is what he is....irritating....making my day worse than it already is...kept bugging me...i thought i could pour my heart out, nope....he just kept whining about everything...and poor me had to listen...sigh..not listening much though...he really destroyed all that is left of my social life...since now there is little of it left...kept bugging me on what to buy for gifts, which i have no idea...my head was else where...(by now, it should be obvious where it is..)..
with him around, i didn't have the chance to bid farewell with them and her...

all the way he bugged and bugged...at home, during my nap, he called and bug where he should go and buy the prezzies...forgot if he called twice, thrice, or only once...anyway...all of us had decided to buy a the two presents together, so we could get something more expensive and of greater value...but he just kep insisting he wants to get his seperate stuff...if so, then why keep bugging me?!...

usually i tolerated him, but today i just felt like bursting out..sigh...

anyway, Thinking of the same thing..