Thoughts of a 'Man'

i feel that i'm make hell in ppls lives....also, there is this trend which i hate bout myself, constantly getting bored of uniformity...i'm one that constantly seeks variety, and can't hang with the same peeps everyday..i can't isolate myself in anyway, it stops me from functioning..hate myself for being a guy that can't commit in some sense...this trend keeps repeating in me, i know what'll happen next(esp when ppl try to hold me..i'm volatile.)...sigh...some just don't understand sometimes, and thusi'm the one in difficule now since no one would understand, and if i ever come plain and explain, ppl will still now understand....minds work so differently, perspective shapes how we view....for e.g there is no right or wrong, just should or should not, even this is troublesome to decide..... the best bet? persuasion not explanation....

i've moved my focus from others, to myself....(maybe just for awhile..) i don't know...like shellylow says, internal politics can be controlled, while external politics is beyond our control...yeah blah blah blah....

the realm of romance is like freeze dried, hoping for a better tmr....