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Friday, March 11, 2005
I coasted..
well today was kinda a neutral-crappy day....some tragedy happened...something that hit them all at their hearts....i wonder why, and if its similar.....well i've been thru something like this before...well...and i know i probably felt the same way then...don't know if its to do with their friendship, but if it is...then it sure feels like shit at the start...back then in my group of friends, for a long time(close to a yr maybe, thats from just one source though)....when i was with them, i never felt like talking...well i just became more of an introvert after sec 1 in school, then it was carried forward when i was with my pals during beginning of sec 3...well...all the time i was hanging with them, countless sleepovers, and stuff, i was very less participative...and i slept(maybe) at every opportunity when at their place, cause i was just too tired...
so for a long time, i felt left out and all, and they know it....back late december last yr...probably 22 dec if i did not rmb wrongly...we were on the way to my friend's house at bukit batok...before that, he acted pissed with me all the time, but my other friends pleaded me to go...so i did...then at the mrt station, we had an argument on the phone...well he staged it all...(sigh, expect all this from geminis..)..then i felt sad, pissed, and teary..(felt like yrs of 5 yrs of friendship gone.).then he said...i was to meet him downstairs at his apartment...while my other two friends went up...so that i can apologize...i don't know why he is blaming me at all, but i had no fault...when we met...we started talking...he revealed that our argument was just a "show", so we can talk among ourselves....hmm...well smart move...i didn't expect this, cause i never bothered...so talked talked talked.about how we did not spend time, how i behaved.....teary and all...and well...then thats it...both apologize...and became better....
well back to today, if both situations was similar...then the crying would have got them closer instead of division...if they cried, probably was because friendship was on the line...hmm..
well this is just what went thru my head, ppl read, so i shall not comment too much...hope they are all right, esp her...hmm...
so for a long time, i felt left out and all, and they know it....back late december last yr...probably 22 dec if i did not rmb wrongly...we were on the way to my friend's house at bukit batok...before that, he acted pissed with me all the time, but my other friends pleaded me to go...so i did...then at the mrt station, we had an argument on the phone...well he staged it all...(sigh, expect all this from geminis..)..then i felt sad, pissed, and teary..(felt like yrs of 5 yrs of friendship gone.).then he said...i was to meet him downstairs at his apartment...while my other two friends went up...so that i can apologize...i don't know why he is blaming me at all, but i had no fault...when we met...we started talking...he revealed that our argument was just a "show", so we can talk among ourselves....hmm...well smart move...i didn't expect this, cause i never bothered...so talked talked talked.about how we did not spend time, how i behaved.....teary and all...and well...then thats it...both apologize...and became better....
well back to today, if both situations was similar...then the crying would have got them closer instead of division...if they cried, probably was because friendship was on the line...hmm..
well this is just what went thru my head, ppl read, so i shall not comment too much...hope they are all right, esp her...hmm...
