Thoughts of a 'Man'

sigh...got home early today, because was quite pissed off...just not feeling well... was just lying at the sofa next to the computer for about an hour already since before 6 30...sigh...waiting for her to come online...so i can ask how shes doing...had to sit up just to see who comes online everytime.been looking at nothing but the sky while lying down, hoping that some miracle will happen that erases all that shit i've felt for the last 3 months...it really sucks to be feeling like this, everything reduced to this state...

i'll stop waiting at 7 30, i have just too much homework....sigh i don't think she's ever going to come online now...and even if she does, i feel worst after everytime i talked to her anyway...hopes she comes last minute...