Thoughts of a 'Man'

sigh....i wonder why when one says that they have went ahead, why do they still bear grudges against you...though they don't talk about last time anymore (whatever bad that happened then, now i still do not know) , they talk to you like they hate you so much... its like everyone wants to move on, and yet you are still so angry...(all the they, you, them...etc whatever refers to that same one person)..its like you never meant to hurt them in the past, nor pick a fight at present, yet they treat you like shit....

now its as if i raped her or something and is her eternal enemy...she is like angry for no f***ing reason...don't talk about pms, its like that all the time..

ok...maybe she is like that, maybe there is no reason, she is doing this for the sake of dumping all her anger....she was all cheery when i got her her email account back, in less then days, she resents you all over again...

most might wonder why i keep talking about her here all the time, its just that i want her to stop hating me or whatever....and when i ask her if she hates me, she says she does not hate me....does that just means she hates me extremely?...

if you would wonder why i would bother if she hates me, i can just ignore her rite? but its the last little imperfection in my life right now...its the only thing bothering me now...

sigh...can't go on....