Thoughts of a 'Man'

*new era=new start. *full circle=moving in circles=not good.

i approached the situation that i've been at unease since november, and have comed to a final conclusion. i don't know if this conclusion is going to close the case or not, but i guess this is it. neither do i want it anymore.

since nov...been wanting to give up, and many times, i am convinced that i've moved on, but time and time again, it did not dawn on me. i'm convinced that this time is different, coz she couldn't care less, neither do i now. i told her how i felt, but i can't blame her either.. even i hate myself...classified by others as a gemini, though i beg to differ. i hate almost all the geminis that i've met in my life..maybe one that i've learn to accept, which is one of my good pals at anevon..tried to change myself, but i've learnt of all the negative traits of me or as a gemini, fickleness and many many more...my goal for at least a year now had been to be the best that i can be,since i hate the way i've become so much..

life is full of shit, it gets harder everysecond... i'm not whining, i'm not saying that i do not appreciate what i have now, i'm not saying i'm worst off than an malnutritioned african kid...just stating a fact. If orders of things could happen backwards, for e.g, like the mercedes benz ad if i did not rembmer wrongly, something about dying then start life at old age than get younger...and let birth be the end instead of death..

so now i have not plotted my course and shall think of it carefully. its new era, like the rebirth of playstation, PS3...shall set up for competition..