Thoughts of a 'Man'

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k i'm back...have no time to decorate this sloppy crap of a blog. no trace of my previous blog, and its just too troublesome to write my dairy..haven't touched it for a yr maybe...more like some months...oh i should have started on the start of the new yr...now that 5 weeks have past i shall give a brief appetiser of things that had went by.... (don't read unless you have to as its on what i've been doing....its boring..)

1st week: Went by in a blink of an eye..the 4 in a group class arrangement was really great though, was cosy like sofa(funny simile..lol)....but was changed to the present sitting plan..which is still great...was really great to be back in school....its like going back into life, dec holidays was bullshit.I miss all the people in school. made a goal to win her.(another..)

2nd week: went by like the lifespan of an ant(thats longer than a blink.) Can't remember much...school was manageble, ppl are still fun...poke fun with some buddies on a rap by beastie boys.....and went for Singapore vs Indonesia...great atmosphere esp after the match...was like a victory march to the mrt station....very out of hand though...ppl got too high...

3rd week: went by like gas escaping from the ahole.towards the end of the week was the beggining of one of the worst eras. Comp fuse blew..
One of those times when one gets dreams consistently in his sleep..was what i was experiencing...dreams of the somewhat broken relationship....
in the dream, was like desperately looking for her but after i found her....she somehow gets missing and i was in another hell of a situation...i was even feeling much more desperate than before, and was in a worst feeling then at the start of the dream...so throughout i was just trying to look for her as if it was the last time i would see her....woke up to tears...ASS....to think i got over it as i didn't even give a single thought about her......and dreams of her keeps appearing everyday.....another one was one that made me felt really guilty....coz its over, and i was smooching with her in my dream....LOL......really scary man....omg......of course there were better dreams about another person...all this kept happening for about 5 days...made sleep really interesting..hm...
went to shiping's birthday party too....quite boring but made my day anyway..
and i hacked into her acct too.after coming back from the party...aiyo so easy...haha...gave it back though..can't exploit it in anyway either...also that the exploits only provide short term satisfaction and can't acheive any sh*t..

4th week: went past like...(can't express anymore..).....now i don't know why but i want her back so badly..though i assume she hates me all the while...so theres nothing i can do..hm...felt very low...
and have been staying back to do the notice board, don't ask me why, theres just nothing better to do, and its just like hanging out with friends anyway, so its not that bad...
and there is the stupid handphone chain which i started...just got too bored and wanted to cheer myself up and others who felt the same like i did...but some ass misunderstood and told the teacher which apparently mistook it as a form of protest....it was suppose to be something fun which the class could participate in by wearing a rubberband..lol..and ppl saw it as protest....what narrow width of perspective... been suffering from cough the whole week too...

5th week: like 4 th week just that 2 days ago i got over it..great, what a bother it was...
My comp is back....still minor cough...
so the class now is up to some gel + macoroni in a testtube for sale project to raise some money on valentines' day...not exactly interested, but the factor on money just got to me even though i won't keep it in the end....
and wow...netball keeps winning every single match...and trashing sommore! differences of 20- 30(morethan that i guess)...while the otherside scored less than 10....wah they might as well forfeit....

What can i say? life goes on...like the shit that comes out from our asses, so are there the imperfections and bumps in our lives...
Right now my goals are:
1) Study...
2) Stop the hatred that she might be having for me...its like she gets angry so easily when i talk to her...wah...grudges...
3) Improve physical aspect....as in eat more more more!....i'm so skinny..!

And a little bit of trivia for you peeps out there...For a messy person like me, i'm neat at times only when its convenient...I have my computer for proof, but none of your have ever seen it...

its really little load for such a long span of time...

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sigh...made many ascii art but not supported by this text editor...sigh...a picture speaks a thousand words but can't do it here...sigh..