Thoughts of a 'Man'

well the past few days had been great(not exactly...just felt like crying a lot, sometimes because i'm happy sometimes because i'm sad, and othertimes angry..)

on sunday, i left for zhi's (my friend's) house, after playing battlegrounds(revolutionary war game..when america was fighting for independence..) and trashing everyone....then we got so bored i left home at 9pm and left....yay..(done this many times, but especially happy then, because my parents left for malaysia and no one at home...)

didn't do much on monday....on tuesday( today, i was in a daze the whole day...i took mrt from novena to cityhall and then from cityhall back to novena, with every intention to get to clementi..) went to school for senior leadership wkshop(slwkshop), it was boring, and day went utterly slow....we were given talks the whole morning, and whole afternoon(when mrs lim(v.principal) was talking, i was sitting right in front of her...she was talking, i was falling asleep)...except some "ice-breaker" games in the morning which was quite boring...after everything, had captain's ball game for media camp, its ok...if i had a choice...i would not though..after that, went back home at 6 pm to get more clothes and back to zhi's house...(i was still in daze, i got down from jurong east and boarded train towards woodlands, with every intention of getting to novena...omg)

i slept from 8:30 till about 10. (forgotten about my birthday...serious!) after that, at 10 pm we walked to orchard from novena after buying slurpee from 7-11 at united square...orchard was as usual, quiet...(at 11pm what...) at about 11:30pm, my friends(zhi,chee,janson,jiayang,mingwei,ziming) kept discussing among themselves, feeling left out, and me not realising it was my birthday.... at 12am, 9th jun 2004, wednesday....friends sang b'day song to me(a surprise one..) at paragon, teared,( i forgotten..and they remembered)....

we headed back at 2am, while walking back, something happened to our dear friend...(shall not say more..)

anyway, the next day, went to school anyway, for slwkshop its much better, got into random groups...well my team was great, cooperated well even though none of us are really close...never did so much projects in so little time (not tough though, when job is divided to everyone equally...)we did this art work on "sense of belonging in ctss"(somewhat...)....for once i was wrong....i was so convinced that our work would be one of the worst from the start all the way till near the end...(we were using paper mache with torn construction paper, none other groups did so...)...even when the picture was nearly complete(i contributed by tearing paper)...i thought it sucked...(a tree with many hearts..lol)...when leonard and yixian started colouring the empty spaces with red , yellow, orange....it looked better, but still it didn't looked good....i went for lunch, came back saw it....now it was the exact opposite...i felt our work was darn good...lol...(all thx to the crayons from leo and yx....)...we did a lot of "projects"...but shall not write it, as it will be boring reading it...well, anyway, i made a few friends in this wkshop...well good ppl(future leaders eh..)

went home after that as presentations for slwkshop went to 6(planned to end at 5)...did not go for media camp( too late)

that night, went back zhi's house...(no one at home, i mean my house, thats why i went to my friend's)... it we went to watch "best bet" at marina square...was quite good...(about singaporeans addiction to 4d)...we walked around after that, went to pan pacific hotel for a walk....after that we walked a whole lot in empty suntec city(trying to get to city link thru it)....it was 12am...(locked everywhere, but we managed to get in...its funny how we got out...) after half an hour of finding our way,we got stopped by guards..lol...they wanted to walk us back to where we came from...lol...which is a long waY.. we got out thru a bar(strictly for adults only...) we took a walk in(without much consideration..)..lol...and got out the otherside...(with many ppl staring at us, and one person stopped us, but we were walking out the exit already... got out took an overhead bridge.....and reached...citylink, a few metres away from pan pacific hotel...(if you realised, we left from pan pacific in search for shorter way to citylink, but we took 30+ mins and only displaced a few metres, serious!!!...because we took a wrong turn and entered a detour!!!..lol..)

at about 1:30am we walked to esplanade and pranced around a bridge joining two sides of singapore river which were meant for cars....but then...there were no cars except taxis at night...we sat by the river.... got a taxi home(zhi's house) at merlion club at merlion park....

anyway, yesterday(now its past 12)...went for chem pratical on titration(could'nt get a grey solution....)...went to mc's and back to school and sat in class(3c1) from about 10+ to 12+....watchingpeople setting the notice board, and later discussing the class seating plan...managed to get a good seat for myself among some nice people...the thing is, there is a chance that we would not follow the plan...

camp was "ok"...did nothing for first 3 hr...at 3 o clock...got a scolding from chiang, and had to enter tutorial rm, supposed to finish a t-shirt design, which i did not help out, guilty a little, because i was everywhere else but here....after that we had to take pictures with the theme of "soccer"...i saw this "skinless" soccer ball which nobody was using...i saw this grassless patch in the soccer field...decided to take a picture of a skinless ball in a grassless patch(was doing that for the fun of it, with no intent on it being submitted to some competition...in the end it did...doesn't matter anyway)...later, we had to vote for various leaders for diferent departments of MMS(my cca..cool eh..mms..)...later had some food(party)...called home, talked to father, he did not scold me, but he was sounding pissed...i got angry...(its no big deal...so shall not write it...)...went back to zhi's house at 6pm, walked passed revenue house, saw gerald (ex-schoolmate) and chee skating...i felt sudden joy(don't know why...)..went into house changed changed, got skates , went out to play hockey....(gerald didn't play, cause he let the skates to me...well, felt sorry cause he didn't get to have the fun we had...)...well others present, ziming, zhi, albert(ziming's friend...lol talks funny...i kept laughing the wholeday..) , and the other guy...did really got his name, weichong or something....well the rest of the day was just hockey, and some of them doing some ncc project for their camp...

i got home, bathed sat down on my comp, checked some stuff and started typing in here....

well, this week, i made many friends, 8 or more... good times, though it is during bad times.....

Posted by: Pang Ziqi / 10:39 AM